Hope | j.black

that wasn't me.

The worse thing with my humanity coming back, is the fact the feeling to please my father has come back and go along with his ridiculous advice.

"You're an idiot, you know that right." My other self commented in the reflection of the side mirror on the motorcycle. Ignoring her, I kept the speed limit to the boundary. To the cullen territory, where I swear the temperature drops several degrees.

Coming to a stop, taking my helmet off as I swung my leg over the seat. I ruffled my hair to remove the helmet hair that my helmet loves to get me.

Heading inside, closing the door behind me. I turned and stopped, seeing every cullen and Jacob, as well as my sister. "Oh, hi? Everyone's here." I awkwardly laughed it off.

"Who's Eric?" Alice asked as Emmet folded his arms sternly, I took in a sharp breath as I laughed it off.

"I don't know-." Bella cut me off.

"Hope." She raised her eyebrows up, my heart started to race. "Spit it."

"Eric, was the original Tribrid, he was murdered in transition... so he didn't actually become... fully activated." I scratched the back of my head.

"Why couldn't we see him?" Alice asked again.

"He was a ghost, but... basically was a fling thing. But I ripped his heart out, so he's gone. Oh! My humanity is back, I was tricking all of you that I had it back." I rambled, taking a heavy breath as I placed my hand on my chest. Feeling my heart beat crazy against my chest, I saw mixture of looks.

"I told you all, but no! Don't listen to me!" Rose stormed out of the room. I looked to my sister, who dropped her head in disappointment, looking to Edward, he looked saddened and finally... looking to Jacob. He stared at me, his glare was sad and angry. He looked like he was fighting multiple feelings at once, it was heart wrenching. Humanity, you suck.

"Jake, can I talk to you?" I questioned gently, gulping.

"Sorry, I just need a second." He replied as he stormed out of the room. Gulping heavily, I looked to my sister and brother in law.

"Please, that wasn't me. Please understand, I had no idea what I was doing. I was crying on the inside and drowning as this other me, had control." I began to tear up, gasping as I could feel a panic attack come on. "I'm so sorry, so so sorry." I said shakily, watching as my sister got to her feet. Opening her arms to pull me in, as I kept apologising. She hugged me tightly, reassuring me.

"It's going to be ok."