More Than a Soldier

Chapter 25 - Wedding Date

Scarlett's POV:

Since Y/n has gone back to work, things seem to have returned to normal. Well, as normal as they can be. But that actually worries me. I know that Y/n is still struggling with the loss of Jimmy and going into work and passing his office every day has been tough.

She still doesn't sleep through the night and I'm sure she's having nightmares, but she's not sharing them with me. I know that I can't push her to talk, but I feel helpless again. I think she was hoping that after the funeral, and being back at work, that maybe things would be easier. But grief doesn't work like that, and I know she's a stubborn ass. It's hard, but I'm trying to be there for her, by not pushing, but I also don't want her to shut herself away.

I know that I want to talk to her about it properly, I'm just trying to find the right time. It doesn't help when she comes in all excited because she's booked us some viewings at the last of the wedding venues on our list. It's when she seems most happy when we're working things out for our wedding. I guess it should make me happy that she's finding happiness in our impending nuptials.

We saw two venues this morning, and as nice as they were, they're not the ones. They didn't have the wow factor we wanted. We have decided on an outdoor wedding, knowing that the weather in LA is pretty consistent. We did talk about getting married in New York or England, but LA is our home at the moment, and we know we can get the wedding we want here.

We're now at our last venue on our list in Malibu. If this isn't the one, then we're back to square one in finding some alternative opportunities. Y/n and I both love the beach and had quite quickly decided that we wanted to get married on or near it if we could. Turns out that was harder than expected. I mean there were plenty of locations, just none that fit what we wanted.

However, as soon as they show us where the ceremony would be on the deck overlooking the ocean, I know this is the place. By the gasped wow that just left Y/n's lips, I think she feels the same. There's a beautiful wedding arch overlooking the ocean. White seats line the aisle, and it just looks perfect. I can imagine walking down here, ready to marry the love of my life.

I take Y/n's hand as the assistant shows us around. Pointing out all the things of interest and what we would have control over. Most importantly, explaining how good the photos spots are. She then shows us the inside area which is attached to the ceremony space outside. It's actually all set up for a wedding and it looks beautiful. The more we see, the more I fall in love with it and can picture us getting married here.

Once the tour is over, the lady leaves the three of us to look around on our own. We walk back to the deck and look out over the ocean. "I love it." Y/n whispers and it makes my heart flutter that she feels the same. She turns to me, and I give her the biggest smile. "I do too." I share and she smiles wider. "What about you bug?" Y/n asks Ava who's on her tiptoes looking over the barrier. She quickly turns around to us and gives us the biggest thumbs up she could. "You have to get married here!" She squeals, making us both laugh.

"Have we just found our wedding location?" I ask Y/n, pulling her towards me. "I think we have my love." Y/n responds, leaning in to kiss me. The excitement I feel is almost overwhelming. Not being able to plan for 8 months after getting engaged has been tough. Part of me wanted to whisk her off to the courthouse and get married there. But she deserves a proper wedding.

After finishing looking around, we re-join the assistant, and she brings up the calendar to check their availability in the spring next year. I feel like I can almost feel my heart beating out of my chest, part of me not believing that this is actually happening. "So, it looks like we have availability for Saturday May 1st if that would work for you?" She asks, looking up from her tablet. I turn to Y/n whose smile hasn't disappeared. "I'll be unemployed then so works for me." She jokes, causing me to roll my eyes at her. "That would work perfectly. I don't start filming for Jojo Rabbit until June 1st. So, we'll have plenty of time for the honeymoon." I respond, already making sure I knew my schedule by heart so we could get a date booked in if we found somewhere.