I Am You [COMPLETED]

Epilogue

SIMON CODIE

They say, "When you fall out of love, don't leave that girl because that was just the start of true love." And so I did. I didn't leave her. I don't have the plan to leave her either.

But days, weeks, months, and years had passed by, and I didn't feel the spark. I didn't feel the love on our relationship anymore. And I'm afraid. I'm afraid I could do the most stupid thing in the world--- to leave the girl I love the most. I'm afraid I would regret my decision when the time comes that I would realize how much I love her. That it was just a big challenge on our relationship.

I ended up fighting our relationship. Everyday is a mess. Everyday is a kind of hard on me knowing I fall out of love, and I don't want to think of that. God knows how much I scolded myself for falling out of love on my wife. We've promised to love each other for the rest of our lives, yet, here I am, falling out of love.

Fuck you, Simon! Don't you dare fall out of love! Don't ever think of that again!

And so I ignore the thought--- falling out of love on my wife. I've been in a hard times ignoring the thought because it keeps bugging me. It keeps haunting me. Everytime I would stare at her, there were no sparks. There were no love either. So what did I do is that I would just hug her from the back, trying to find out where the fuck is my love on her.

I'm struggling. I know it's difficult to live with her everyday with the thought of being fall out of love, yet I focused myself on the goal, to fall inlove again to her... to my lovely wife.

"I promise, they'll be safe, honey."

I saw how much she changed. Promise. My wife won't say that. She would rather say she'll try than to promise something.

"Selene, come here."

We're here in the living room, watching a movie. Nagtaka ako nang makitang umupo si Selene sa tabi ko, hindi sa tabi ng ina niya.

"Can you please leave us alone?! You'll just a pain in the eye everytime I'll see you, so fuck off!"

And the way Selene talks to her mom changed. Mas close sila noon, hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyari para umakto siya nang ganyan sa ina niya.

When my phone rang, I heaved a deep sigh before taking the call.

[Dude! Your wife and your twins involved into an accident!]

And when I heard those fucking bad news, I felt like my world collapsed. Kaagad akong nagpunta sa hospital kung saan sila dinala.

"Pauleen!"

Nakahinga ako ng maluwag nang makitang okay lang ang asawa ko. Na okay lang ang mga anak ko, kasi hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko kapag may nangyaring masama sa kanila.

I hugged her tight. "You don't know how much I got worried hearing my wife and kids involve in an accident." My voice cracked. I looked up and heave a deep sigh. "Thank god you are all safe."

I got happy knowing my feelings are back! After that accident, everytime I'll stare at her, there was this glee and unknown feelings I have felt. There was this bereavement, and I was curious why the fuck I would feel that when we're living in one roof?

I ignored that thought, but not the feelings I had been feeling towards her. It was great, and I love the way how our love sparks even more everyday.

I intentionally didn't fix my tie that much so she could fix it for me. I walked downstairs and saw she was in the living room.