My Villain [Dust Sans x Reader]

Chapter 15. ~Mental Breakdown.~

Dust POV. [THIS CHAPTER HAS SWEARING]

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I slammed the door shut as I walked into Grillby's. "Stupid Nightmare." I growled and sat down at the bar. "Stupid Y/N, for getting herself captured." I grabbed a bottle of alcohol from behind the counter. "Stupid me for letting all this happen."

"Sans, don't blame yourself." Phantom hovered over my shoulder. "It's not your fault!"

I opened the bottle and took a sip. "It is too my fault. I let her get captured. Who knows what's happening over there. Nightmare just wants to see me suffer."

Phantom sighed and moved until he was floating in front of me, like he was leaning on the counter. "Just go get her back! You're Sans, after all. You sneak in there, find her, and then leave."

"And if Nightmare found us?" I muttered. "We'd both be good as dead. Do I look like I wanna die to you?"

"You won't die." Phantom rolled his eyes. "Honestly, Sans, you're acting like a coward."

"I AM NOT A COWARD, YOU PIECE OF S-" I stood up, then paused and sat back down with a sigh. I placed my head on the table with a groan. "She's ruined me. Look at me. I'm a freaking mess. All 'cause of her. What the hell's happened to me?"

"She's the first person to show you kindness since you killed Frisk." Phantom pointed out. 

I let out a pathetic chuckle. "I wonder what was goin' through her head when she promised she'd never leave me."

"She's alone, too, you know. She doesn't have anyone, either. You're the first friend she's had in a long time. It's probably just as strange for her as it is for you."

"Yeah, maybe." I looked up at the ghost of my brother as I took another sip.

He looked at me but didn't say anything.

We sat in silence.

...

"Do you think she... Cares about me...?" I whispered as I finished the bottle. I reached down and grabbed another. I laughed. "'Course not. I'm crazy if I think she cares."

"You're already crazy." Phantom said as I drank half of the bottle in just a few seconds.

"I'm talking to my dead brother." I said with a harsh laugh. "'Course I'm crazy."

I finished the bottle and grabbed another.

"Sans, you shouldn't be drinking so mu-"

"Don't tell me-" I paused and hiccupped. "What to do."

"You know it's not good for you."

"Do I look like I care?" I swung the bottle around, already starting to get drunk.

"Sans-"

I drank the whole bottle and then dropped it. It shattered on the ground and Phantom sighed as I grabbed, yet again, another one.

"Sans, stop th-"

"How many times do I need to-" I hiccupped again. "Tell you? I'm not SaNS." My voice cracked and I let out a tiny giggle.

"You're being pathetic. Stop this and go get some sleep."

"You don't tELL me what to-" I paused. "To do, mom."

Phantom shook his head but didn't say anything.

"I wonder how Y/N-" I hiccupped once more. "Is doing-" I set the bottle down with a groan. "She's probably dEAD and it's all my faULT." I let out a pathetic sob. "Maybe I should go... Make su-Sure- She's o..Ok.." I stood up and stumbled. I fell on the floor.