Knew it was different
It was going to be someday
It looked and felt
Nothing like Christmas
It was just Christmas eve, but
I suddenly wanted to call home
I couldn't focus on my notes
I journalled a tonne more
Than ever before
It came back at me
All those who did ask for me
To take a trip back home
But alas there are the variables
That can't be messed with
I can't even force myself to work
But it hit me and I finally smile
When I've learnt that you'd had fun
For last year I sneaked off
Seven days to make a 2 week bunk
Chilling and getting to bond
It's true that you
Never realise till it's gone
I'm not even the kind to sit around
When there's more than immediately fam
I can barely be found
Despise events and gatherings
And probably haven't been
To a single family wedding
In over 5 years
Then there's still that me
Who gets apathetic and
Feels nothing at moments
But then comes random ones
Where this heart feels to much
And now all it yearns for
Just take me home
Take me to my people♡
~Z
More rant than a planned out verse
Honestly though, I couldn't help it... I'm glad everyone had fun! But it just suddenly slapped me across the face... I've been seeing all of it for about a month already... and it didn't sting quite as much... but I guess... yeah... I do miss it all deep down... #write #rant #christmas #missingout #emo #emotions #feels #family #friends #home #holiday #noholiday #workonchristmas #work #busy #stress #sad #sensitive counting down 3 more weeks till I finally can go back home. #pongal #pongalholidays
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PoesíaThese were all on my Instagram... (plus some new ones) Then I began feeling something about it... I'm a quiet kid... always... but how did I put it all out... I didn't want the attention... I liked when I was of some help to anyone out there... some...
