Me.

JULY 4 2022

I was here when my heart chose
To rant or to pour
In places I couldn't sob
It was no compulsion at all
Maybe at a few instances it was
Made the writers' block obvious
But sometimes there's too much
Of all the negatives all at once
And it's overwhelming to the point
Where you can't react to either
I came here to let go of feelings
That I constantly repressed
I put myself into each one
To be relatable even outside my experiences
And I have no regrets at all
I'm still proud of myself
For going beyond my own
Expectations - and even others'
Sometimes to fall behind
Just begins to take a toll
Meow chan told me about
Childhood prodigees to teen survivors
To complete wrecks
It was a random quote
But alas albeit too relatable
And at times it's just an overwhelming
Struggle in the moment
One at a time is each bearable
But someone told me earlier
All at once is a shorter recovery
And I'm glad they were there
I'm glad you're all here
Even unaware and only at heart
Thank you for your solace
Thank you for letting me
Write my heart out
But alas a break is what I need
For a little while... lettinb bad news
Sink before it floats back up
Head aching, eyes blurry, hands shaky
Skin burning, even hotter tears beading
Teeth chattering as I bite away
Both the chill and more hot tears
I give out so many apologies anyway
What's one more
Here's a first with a typed one
-Z
#sorry #letters #letter #hiatus
Not many ppl will still stay but... I have y'all... and I'm not letting y'all go... for the real world... @chicken_little_101 @kashvi_forever19 @ar_ah_st  @annawinstun and to the ones that haven'tbeentold yet... guys... Imma get to it when I charge back up... @yzuniverz