All made sense yet all did not
Why am I awake this tired
When had the music stopped
Caught in a blizzard of thought
The dark never scared me up until
Deep in thought I felt the chill
Just these very sleepless nights
As I drown in bone chilling anxiety
Still yet shivering, even complying
All meters pointing to negatives
Maybe it wasn't even meant to be
I cry in the rain and now in the sea
Lifeguard was he - barely afloat
And soon enough I unfroze
I felt his fear and dove right in
Even if I knew I'd never win
But the vines came loose to touch
Pulls us up and thanks lady luck
Sire, your lady lay here in panic
She saved you though she
Hadn't learnt to swim
Eyes only misting once again
Chilled soul on baked shore
Silent and still - here we go again
The tornado now unpaused
The torrents begin - of
Thoughts within and tears ahoy
Jumping about with me a trophy
If not for me you'd be withering
Yet here you - a lie now flaunting
You might need to grow a bit
Before you get why I smiled
Alas here you're just a child
Maybe not for just invalidation
But for what goes on - dungeon
Mine entrapped - diploe and bone
I hit my books to crack my skull
Lest I shouldn't come whispers
Come the wandering words
Silently blood curdling screams
I still feel like the imposter
I want but don't deserve it all
Yet you've chosen to come back
Sitting by on the same shore
Glaring at the man who claimed
I were a trophy since he'd saved
Yet you're the one who chose
To warm up these freezing hands
To thaw the ice just enough for
You to make it into my heart
The cold is numbing and
I feel absolutely nothing but
You're bent - You want me to
Won't stop even if it hurts you
Won't stop until I too like you
~Z
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