The Unfortunate Crush (Published under UKIYOTO PUBLISHING HOUSE)

Chapter 39

Everett

"What were you thinking?" hindi makapaniwalang tanong ko kay Dana nang magising ito.

Nasa ospital ito ngayon. Good thing I found her on time.

When I tried visiting her in her condo, I saw her with a cut on her wrist and she's losing a lot of blood. She left a voice message in my emails and she sounds so sad so I've decided to pay a visit.

"I-I'm pregnant, Rett." Nanginginig na sabi niya. "P-Pwede mo bang panagutan ako?"

Hindi makapaniwalang tiningnan ko ito.
I can't help but gasped and clenched my jaw.

"We're already done with our relationship three months ago. Hindi ba at dapat pa nga ay aamin na tayo ngayon sa mga magulang natin na wala na tayo? And surely, I'm not the father... So why the hell are you telling me that now?"

Dapat ay hindi na kami nagkikita dahil wala na kaming dalawa. It's just that our families pressure her a lot.

Kaya ay hindi niya pa kayang maamin na wala na kami.

She said she already lost her feelings for me long time ago.

Alam kong kasalanan ko rin.

I've been very preoccupied with my work kaya hindi ko na siya nabibigyan ng pansin.

I tried courting her again. Pero kahit na ano pang pagsuyo ang gawin ko ay ayaw na niya talaga.

In the end, we both ended our relationship with a mutual decision.

I've learned to let her go.

I realized that letting go is not only about giving up, it's more like an unspoken message that lets you reassure the person that you are respecting whatever her decisions are.

"Rett, alam kong matagal mo ng napapansin ang gap na mayroon ang relationship natin. We're more like friends and not lovers. Kita mo nga iyan? Oo ka lang ng oo. Talagang papayag ka na aalis ako ng disoras ng gabi? At ako lang mag-isa?" she scoffed. "What kind of boyfriend does that? It's like you're only keeping up with me because you have no time to look for another woman anymore. I don't want a relationship like this, Rett."

That's what she said.

She's right though, especially the part where I have no time to look for another woman.

For me, it's now or never. I'm too busy with our projects that I don't think I'll find time to enter new relationship again.

Besides, nakakapagod magsimulang muli at mag-open up sa panibagong tao.

"I only feel like a trophy girlfriend in our relationship. And Rett, I'm not planning to be your trophy wife."

Napangiti ako ng mapait. I was supposed to propose to her when she broke up with me. Nagpagawa pa ako ng singsing at locket para sa kanya.

Naalala ko ang frustration na naramdaman ko noong panahong iyon.

At itong marinig sa kanya ngayon na na buntis pa siya..

Napapikit ako.

"H-Hindi niya dapat malaman Rett," nanginginig na dagdag niya na nakapagpatigil sa akin.

She cried hard.

"He... He is a member of the underworld society."

Hindi ko napigilang mapamura.