Reborn into the Hunger Games ( Finnick Odair x Male oc)

Chapter 8: Life and Love (smut)

Chapter 8: Life and Love (smut)

Finnick POV

    The train ride back to district 4 was a long one. All I wanted to do was get off and smell the fresh sea air. It took a long few hours to arrive at our stop. It was about 3 O'clock, When I first set my foot on district 4 soil. I felt a sense of relief in doing so. However, my mind was still plagued with the dangers and voices that wanted to drag me down. Once the fresh sea air touched my face, and the cold windy breeze. I knew I was home. I am home, I'd repeatedly said in my head. My trying to reassure myself was a way for me to stay calm. Then I remembered the promise I had made to Rudy. I wanted to tell him that I love him with all my heart.

    I started to look for him at the train stop. Moving my head back and forth from side to side. People may think I was losing it, but I just wanted to see his face. I looked through the sea of people frantically searching. Then I heard his beautiful melody of voice from across the station. My darling screamed out my name.

    Once I saw his face it brought a smile to my face and brought warmth back into my long cold heart. I ran to him to hug and hold him in my arms. I wanted to see he was here and to see if he was real.. With all my strength in my body, I pulled him into a death like bear hug. I never want to let him go. Once again I repeated in my mind that I was home.

    After the scene at the train station, Rudy and I went to our spot out at the docks. When we got there we sat in silence and talked for a bit. I told him how I was feeling and all my emotions that I had built inside me. Hearing from him brought me a sense of relief, no judgment and a sense of acceptance. He was so sweet, caring, and understanding. He made me feel human and not a monster that I felt like before. His words are what I needed to hear, and his support is what I needed. I will always be grateful for the time he spent with me to just listen.

    The most shocking point of the conversation at that dock was I got to hear the words "I Love You" from his beautiful plump peachy pink lips. I felt over the moon and full of pride at that moment. It was like our souls a line and link together like they were meant to be. My soulmate. My Darling. I couldn't be any more happier!

    My feelings were at an all time high. It got even better when my lips were on his. We shared our first kiss at the place that we first meant. The kiss was the best and there were more to come in however long we lived.

    With that one kiss, it brought sparks that lightened my dark gloomy world. I knew then and there that I received my greatest joy and love in life, but also my greatest weakness. I will always protect my love! He will always be my first priority. Nothing else mattered, but his happiness and our happiness together.

    As that night ended, Time had seemed to move on. Most days were hard to live, and others just made me want to hide from the world. Through the nightmares, depression, meltdowns, and angry bouts; Rudy was there by my side. My darling became my anchor in the world of the living. He was there, when I woke up screaming from nightmares, in the middle of the night, and he was there to console me with his kisses, sweet words, and presence. He was still there when I cried. I just don't know what I have done in life to have such a wonderful being by my side.

    Each day, My love was there. He helped me the most when I had to move from my family home into the victor's village in district 4. This time in my life had broken me and myself guilt of blaming myself for my family's death. I couldn't handle it. However, like an angel, Rudy was there to guide me and help me move on; but I will never forget. I will continue to say, Rudy was always by my side, even through the times I couldn't sleep.

Most days were bad days, but there were good days in between the bad ones. The longer Rudy was in my presence the more the guilt, anger, and sadness in my heart lessened. The more with my darling I grew to even love him more than ever before. We had gone on dates, when I had felt up to it, or some days when I didn't want to show my face we stayed inside and cuddled in bed, throughout the day and night.