My Life And Rock'n'Roll

Chapter 97 - The Beatles Story Part Two.....

Two days ago my life changed, with Cyn walking away, and today, well, it is the day my life becomes public fodder once again - The Beatles are unveiling themselves to the World once more, and while this should be a happy occasion, I feel anything but happy......

We all arrived back home in Liverpool the day before yesterday, and while the others have been together, Julian and I have spent that time catching up and reminiscing those days gone by, at my sister Julia's. She was so excited to have us here, and while it is true we are all older and supposedly much wiser, emotionally, I am a wreck.

I feel like my life has completely gone full circle, but my one bright light is Jules. He has been with me since Cyn left for Australia, and while part of me wants to ask Jules how Cyn is doing, the other part thinks the better of it.

Right now, we are only hours away from The Beatles Circus being our reality once more, yet, all I want to do is run away and hide. Years ago, when the guys and I were in our prime, our private lives became so public, no longer our own, that I didn't behave the way I should have, so now, I need to reassess what my options are.....

With this, after today's Press Conference, my focus will be on two things - Jules, and the band. I can't allow myself to think of anything else - namely Cyn. That won't mean I will never not worry about her, because I do, with every breath that I take.....

To my surprise, Jules is coming with me to Anfield Oval, and as the driver has just arrived at Julia's to pick us up, do I get the sense my life is never going to be the same. How does one cope with that????
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They say everything happens for a reason, and today, is an important day. Dad and the guys announce their revival as The Beatles, and while I wasn't fortunate to have my Dad around growing up, I am at least getting this time with him now......

Not too many people know this, but the sad fact is The Beatles cost me my Dad. I was so young when the hype of Beatlemania occurred, so I never got to have the relationship with my Dad the other kids had with their Dad's......

Now, as I am much older, do I appreciate how fortunate I am to have this opportunity with him, and I am taking it with both hands. I have been with Dad for a few days, staying here with him and his side of the family, namely my Aunty Julia, as Mum is away, well, so everyone thinks......

It is now time for Dad and I to head to the Press Conference, and as the driver picks us up, do I see Dad looking deep in contemplation. I would love to know what he is thinking, but then again, I think I already do.....

Lately, I have noticed Dad go through periods of silence, and while I am in part concerned, I also realise he has so much going on in his life, that this could be his way of processing everything.

Dad has always been difficult to read, and right now is no different.....
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I have never seen Liverpool so full of life. Right now, all members of the press are bound for Anfield Oval. To think, when The Beatles split up all those years ago nobody ever envisaged that there was even a possibility of a reunion.

Now, knowing that exactly that this is happening, do we all want to know what comes next. So far, the guys have released three new songs, and the reviews have been positive from all sides of the music industry.....

Since my interview with John back in New York, I have been keeping a close eye on how things are progressing for him here, and I have to say, John seems to be getting his life back on track - albeit under strain....

I have seen first hand just what he has been up against, and now, with John, Paul, George and Ringo becoming The Beatles again, do I see there is some hope for John to have a chance at the future he so much wants......

While John's music career may be back to the fore, I wonder how things are going for him with Cynthia and Julian? After seeing both of their reactions to my interview does it occur to me that one or neither of them will want to be part of John's life moving forward - I couldn't imagine how John is handling everything right now......

I can only hope he does have some support, as if he doesn't, he has gone through so, so much, for nothing......
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This is it......we have just pulled in to Anfield Oval, and the others are already here, awaiting our arrival. Once Jules and I exit the car, security usher us all into what appears to be the players change rooms.....

Derek Taylor is there waiting, and as we await our time to step back into the limelight, do I know, I know I want this, but I also want to be somewhere else, Australia in fact.....

George and Ringo are looking at me credulously, while Paul just nods his head at me. I know the girls are around somewhere, but in a way, I am relieved I don't have to see them for the moment - as in right in this moment, all I can think of, and all I want, is to see Cyn.....

Once this is over, I am really hoping I can move forward - knowing that the one girl, the one the others saw as my girl Cyn, won't be part of The Beatles story part two.....

We can hear commotion upstairs, and as Jules stays beside me he whispers I will be alright. I hug him tightly, as right now, I don't think I could go through with this without having at least one of them here with me......