My Life And Rock'n'Roll

Chapter 36 - The Dynamic Duo

Today has been a day of revelations. As Cynthia and Julian are about to leave, Cynthia looks to Julian, touches his face and says how relieved she is that John has admitted Julian was made out of love, and not the comments he made to Rolling Stone.

They both share a smidgin of a smile, and Cynthia looks to me and asks me if I feel this interview will work in John's favour now he is back in the UK.....

To be honest, I wasn't expecting Cynthia to ask, but I do answer her as truthfully as I can - she is stunned by my response, and in all truthfulness, I don't think she has ever understood just how respected she is here, and not just by the public.

The media here have much loyalty towards her, for not only treating the media with respect, but also for being The Beatle First Lady. Many of my fellow journalists didn't appreciate John and Yoko's lack of respect towards her, and consequentially those same journalists are now more than willing to hang them both out to dry.

As I look at her, I see why Yoko is so disliked. Regardless of her situation with John and Yoko, Cynthia is the epitome of class. Standing here now do I see why she is so adored by many - some still refer to as John's wife, and that recognition shows what people truly think.

Cynthia and Julian thank me for my kindness and respect for them both, and I have to say their attitude about this interview shows how lucky John is - even if things don't work out for John, he will never fully realise just what he has.....
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Julian and I are about to leave the BBC, and I turn to my son and touch his face. As we both smile, I tell him I am grateful John has said the truth, Julian was made out of love, and I am relieved John admitted the statement to Rolling Stone was untrue.

I will be forever devastated by those comments, but while I have always known the truth, John for reasons only known to him decided to downplay our relationship, and now he has said what I have always known, I will still be concerned he may say something else about Julian and I that is not only untrue, but hurtful to both of us......

I look to Andy, and as we are about to leave I ask him if he feels this interview will work in John's favour. When Andy responds it is likely to garner a mixed response, and it may depend on how Julian and I react to his return does it occur to me this is far different than I expected it to be.

Today has been full of surprises, and we now take our leave. I feel emotionally exhausted, and Julian has not said a word on the way home. I am really worried about him, and I hope he will open up to me.

As we arrive home and I open the front door the phone is ringing. It is Jim, and he asks me to accompany him to a business dinner. I gladly accept, as I have very much enjoyed Jim's company, and at this stage of my life, I am very much wanting happiness and stability......

John may have returned, but at this point I have no interest in seeing him. I have spent so much of my life in John's shadow, that now I need to focus on myself......
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Today is going to be a new beginning - I am on my way to Pete's, as I am going to catch up with Paul McCartney. When he called I was surprised to hear from him so soon, but as he has made the effort to reach out, I know now is the time to attempt to make amends.

I haven't seen Paul for a long time, and while he has Linda and a young family at home, I still feel we are connected.....

The Beatles was my brainchild, and Paul was my equal - we were the dynamic duo, and until I left for the US we were as close as friends could be. While our lives went in completely different directions, I have thought about him at times over the years, and now, having this opportunity to reconnect, do I realise just how much I have missed him, and miss being in The Beatles......
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Mum and I have just arrived home, and I am still processing what Dad has said in his interview. Mum seems to be handling this much better than I am, but she does keep her feelings close to the chest.....

The moment we entered the front door, the phone rang, and it was Mum's friend Jim. She looks happier after talking with him, and it occurs to me they have been spending a lot of time together. I wonder if something is going on between them.....
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I have what would be the most important meeting with my boss Sir Ian Trethowan this afternoon regarding John's interview. Until now, only myself and my producer have seen the interview.

No one from here at the BBC has seen it, as we need to keep this under wraps until cleared by both our legal team and John. Due to his impending divorce, the BBC agreed to not air or print any of this interview until his divorce is finalised, to prevent Yoko taking any legal action against either John or us at the BBC.

John has managed to achieve two objectives of doing the interview, and Cynthia and Julian seeing what he has to say. Now it is only a matter of time until we get the opportunity to broadcast what I believe to be the biggest interview the BBC produces in a long time....