My Life And Rock'n'Roll

Chapter 49 - Heavily Compensated

Life can quickly catch up with you, as I am starting to find out. Working at Harrod's has taken up much of my time, as they are organising a charity event for disadvantaged families to be held in two months.

I have been trusted with organising the decor for the event, as it will be a most prestigious affair. Many prominent and important people will be in attendance, and with all going well, Harrod's management are keen to raise $1 million pounds on the night.....

Julian is doing much better - he is enjoying his job at the record shop, while his relationship with John is improving all the time. Julian sees his Dad a couple of times a week, and he is thoroughly enjoying their time together - this is such a relief to me, and it is one less thing to worry about.....

Jim and I are also going well, however a small part of me is unsure what my feelings for him actually are. We have a good relationship, but I feel Jim's feelings for me are stronger than mine are for him.

While I am enjoying Jim's company, I honestly thought I would feel something more for him after the time we have spent together. I can't explain it, but I feel the emotions are lacking in our relationship.

I am trying to focus on the positives of our relationship, and the more I think about it, the more hesitant I become....

I have had more catch ups with the girls, and at our last one on the weekend, Astrid surprised me with the offer of our exhibition moving to Hamburg, to coincide with The Beatles Anniversary of their first ever performance there. The financial benefits of this offer were so good we couldn't possibly knock it back.....

The Beatles anniversary in Hamburg is going to be big, and now we are hosting our exhibition there for three weeks, we are going to be heavily compensated for our involvement. Astrid was concerned about how I would feel, but in all truth, I loved Hamburg, and I am looking forward to being there for the unveiling next month....

On a sadder note, I still have had no contact with John, although he asks Julian about me every time he sees him. I am happy John cares enough to ask, but I feel it is the guilt talking - for me, if John really wanted to reach out, he knows how to find me.....

I have no intention of chasing him, and I have to concentrate on my life. John hasn't been in my life since the divorce, so I am not going to drop everything just because he has relocated back to England....
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How on Earth does John manage to do this? As if he doesn't have enough baggage going on, now May Pang has arrived in England hoping for another chance with him.

When May contacted me, I was completely blindsided. I made John aware of her interest in seeing him, and, not only was he amazed but stunned she is here to see him.

I know they have seen each other a couple of times, and John seems conflicted as to what to do. Knowing where his heart truly lies, I suggested he should come clean with her about how he feels - the problem is, I honestly don't think he knows himself what those feelings are.....

We are having a double date on Saturday Night, and Beth and I are going to see for ourselves whether his life in LA is enough for him to give May a chance.....
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I am quietly confident this will be more than a short trip. When I reached out to Pete Shotton, I wasn't sure how my arrival here would be received.

It has been wonderful seeing John again, and I know for certain how I feel and what I want. We have seen each other twice, and on Saturday we are going out for dinner with Pete and Beth.

While I want some alone time with John, I realise this will need to be a slow burn. It was a slow burn for us back in LA, and now I have this opportunity for us to have a second chance, I will be as patient as I need to be.

John is very much worth it, and I hope he feels the same way about me.....
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No, no, no.....how did this happen. John has served me papers for disclosure of my financial assets and holdings - somehow he has caught wind of my hidden assets.....

If I fail to disclose everything, he is going to seek an application to have all my assets seized as proceeds of crime - what the?!?

My lawyers have informed me I have no choice but to comply, and if I don't wish to end up arrested and jailed I have no option but to do as requested....

Not only that, John has raised concerns about me having primary custody of Sean, and if it is proven I have 'taken' any money I shouldn't have, it will not look good for me in court.

I am not happy, how the hell did John manage to thwart me, just when I thought I was going to get the upper hand. I have only 48 hours to produce all relevant documentation, and I know how bad this is - I worked hard to get to this point, and now, it appears I am right back at where I was in 1967......
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I am such a mess right now. If my life wasn't complicated enough, it certainly is now. I still have not spoken to Cyn, and knowing she is with someone else, is making this hard for me....

Yoko is really getting on my last nerve. My lawyers have been quick to ensure she produces all relevant documents I have requested. I already know what the findings will be, as I have had not just my accountants but the Internal Revenue Service look into Yoko's assets.....

I have ensured Sean's custody becomes an issue, and now Yoko knows I have her backed into a corner. I was so stupid to have not seen what she was truly about all those years ago, but now, I am definitely aware of whom I am dealing with.....