Chapter 1 - Me and Me Alone

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Life can be unpredictable, and for some, devastating and painful. Some are lucky to go through their lives with the ones they love. I however, have not been one of those people.

I am John Lennon, part of the best musical group in history, The Beatles. My life has not been what most would call normal, and my downward spiral from back then until today needs to be addressed, by me, and me alone.

Three months ago, I gave an interview to Rolling Stone Magazine. At the time, I felt I was giving a candid insight into my life. It wasn't until I realised what I said about my family, in particular my ex wife and our son, that I came to the realisation of just how badly I have acted and behaved toward them.

The article was very damning. So much so, my family back in England were utterly devastated by my comments and thoughts about them. For me, reading my words out aloud brought me to tears. I was not only nasty, but I said a lot of things that were not true.

That is definitely on me and inexcusable. So now, when the opportunity came up to do this interview with Andy, I needed to set the record straight. Andy has spoken to my family back in England, and I am not sure I will be prepared for what they think of the article, and most importantly, what they think of me.

Today I am walking towards the iconic Waldorf Astoria Hotel. I have an interview with Andy Peebles of the BBC, a Television Station from my native England. I have not been back to England for over twelve years, and I am starting to miss home terribly.

At this point in my life, I am 40 years old and am heading for my second divorce. My current wife, Yoko Ono, has shown such little interest in me or our marriage for a long time now, and I know about her lover, Sam Havadtoy.

Yoko thinks I don't know anything, and as I have woken up to my biggest failings in my life, I have finally come to see our thoughts about each other and our relationship do not correlate.

To my knowledge, Yoko has been seeing Sam for over two years, and while I had originally downplayed their liaisons I have had to realise they are truly lovers, in every sense of the word.

Since their relationship has progressed, I barely see Yoko, let alone share the marital bed. I am raising our young son Sean, single handedly, and for the last six months all I want to do is get out of here and go home.....Home, back to England and to my own family which I have selfishly ignored and abandoned for the last fifteen years.

Yoko doesn't know it yet, but I have sought legal representation for our divorce, but through different lawyers from the firm that has represented Yoko and I over the years.

I have made the applications for control of all my money and assets, and joint custody of Sean. The paperwork was filed two months ago, and I expressly wished that Yoko have no prior knowledge of my plans. Only two lawyers are aware of my plans, and I intend to keep it that way until my wishes are carried out and finalised.

Through my new lawyers due diligence, I have already purchased a house back in London, but under my best friend Pete Shotton's name.

During my epiphany about my life choices, it finally occurred to me, no matter what I have told the media and many others the simple fact is I have not seen a lot of my eldest Julian since I left him and his Mother. They both are the main reasons why I am going through all of this.

Andy Peebles contacted my assistant, Fred Seaman quite some time ago, for an interview. Usually, Yoko wants her share of the coverage, and if any of the media decline, she puts her foot down and forbids me from doing the interview.

This time, however, Andy contacted Fred via a letter to his home, and I was notified of it through Fred. He made sure Yoko and her team are not aware of this, so with Fred's invaluable help, I am meeting Andy in a hotel room away from prying ears and eyes.

As I approach the room door, I feel nervous. I don't know how this is going to go, but, I need to do this.....

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