Pain Is Lonely

3

I woke up early and made our breakfast. After we got married, Gemini decided to take a house.

I really loved it.

But later I found out that he buy this house, because of his works.

But I was happy when we live together.

I did all things by my hands.

I really loved it.

I washed our cloths. I made meals for two of us. I clean our home before he come back home.

He didn't even thank me.

But that's okay. He must be tired. I always worried about my husband.

Every day he goes to work and comes back home late.

Sometimes he comes at midnight.

But anyway,

I was waited for him. I really loved when waiting for him.

I decided not to going to work at there anymore. Because now I have responsibilities as a wife.

"Gemini. Baby. Please wake up. Breakfast is ready"

I was tried to wake him up.

"Mmm....." He mumbled sleepy.

"Gemini...... Baby..... Please wake up."

I touched his shoulder. He doesn't wear a top at night. I snuggled with him when he was sleeping.

I really love to stay snug to him. I love his scent. I really love.

I grabbed his hand and started to touch softly.

His palm was big. I chuckled when I figured out that. I kissed his palm and went to giving a kiss to his forehead.

I touched his hair and made his messy hair.

I grabbed his wrist and looked at his bracelet.

I again kissed his palm.

That was the way I kissed him.

He never given me a kiss.

I expected a kiss from him.

I still expect. He doesn't know how I appreciate that if he done.

Somehow I respect my husband no matter what happened.

I have to be more patient. Because I'm a wife now.

One day I have to be a mother. But I don't know when.

"What's the time now?"

He asked me braking my all thoughts.

"Its 8 O'Clock "

He stood up from bed and went to bathroom.

"Good morning "

I said him, when he was going to bathroom.

"Mmm"

Again, that was his cold answer.

I got a breath and went again to arrange his lunch box. Because I didn't like to when my husband eat his lunch there.

"Fourth~~"

I heard he called me. So I leaved his lunch box on the dining table and went to our room.

"What happened Gem."

"Where is my socks !" He yelled echoing our room.

"Don't yell Gem. I'll give you new pair of socks." I said calmly.

I went towards to cloth cupboard and gave him a pair of socks.

"Ahhh..... What is this fuck !"

He screamed again while wearing his tie, around his neck.

I went near to him and grabbed his tie.

"Let me do."

I asked him and I put the tie around his neck slowly.

I looked in to his eyes. Even if our eyes met each others. He didn't show me any felling.

There had only COLD.

No matter how I looked into his eyes lovely, He didn't feel anything.

I knew that.

But I lifted my toes and get close to his tough face. I grabbed his cheeks by my palms and trying to catch his lips.

He knew that what I wanted. But he grabbed my wrist and stopped me.

"I have to leave now. I have works until next year."

It is an year now that we married.

He is really tough. The means of "Until the next year " is, I have to wait until he done his works.

When we were living together, he didn't show me anything about that he want to have sex with me.

He always had to do works. He hadn't time to spend with me.

Every day, he did only his works.

Have sex with me is not possible for him.

Why he can't? Am I not enough to him?

I always questioned myself.

But I had love it. I tried to show my thoughts. He had knew it and always told me that he can take a brake from his work from next year.

Every married couple have sex. But he is different.

If I can give him sexual pleasure, then I should had been happy as a wife.

So I decided to wait.

Have a nice day❤️byby❤️