Pain Is Lonely

10

This is my first time, facing a this kind of situation. Being a mother is very new thing for me.So I was bit nervous and there had a fear. So I decided to go to Gem's parents home.

But I know that they are busy. But I hope they can make some time for me. At first I was hesitation to go their because what they said before. But there hadn't no one to ask for anything. So finally I decided to go there.

Before I go there, I called them to inform this. After that I wrote a chit for Gem. I know that he won't look at this. But If he looks for about me.... So I decided to write one for him and put the chit on the dining table.

Gem hasn't came since yesterday's night. I really wanted to tell about the child, but still he didn't come. I know that he won't be happy about this. But I think he must to know this too, that I am pregnant now.

Before I go there in afternoon. I made some foods and packed some for Gem's parents. And I already prepared everything for Gem if he came home, when I am not in here.

After I prepared everything I went there by a taxi. After half hours, finally I arrived Gem's parents house.

" This way little Gentleman !" A maid said me and she took me to Gem's mother.

"Good afternoon, mother!" I greeted to her and she did same as me.

"Please bring us to drink something and to eat something...." She said to a maid and the maid left.

"So how are you son..... Why Gemini didn't come with you?" She asked many questions.

"I'm good and Gem has lot of works to do mother, so he didn't come with me." I said calmly.

"I brought some food which I made." I took the food box and gave it to mother. She smiled and tanked to me.

"Your food are so yummy. I really love those. My son is lucky. Because he can eat your foods everyday." Putting the food box, on the table which beside her, she said.

"Thank you, mother." I said to her. But I felt sad. Because she doesn't know what really happen between the two of us.

"So why you came here, such a sudden. Usually you don't like to come here. Isn't it..." She said smiling.

"I have something to tell you." I said nervously and hold my handkerchief tightly. I couldn't look at her face straightly.

"What is it, Son ? Did Gemini do something bad to you?" She asked me and this time, I looked at her face.

"No mother.... He didn't do anything to me. But~~~"

I had to stop my words because the maid who took me here, came and greeted us from some sweets foods and fruits juices.

"Thank you." I said the maid and she nodded with smiling.

As soon as the maid leaving the room, mother started to talk again.

"So... Son...Tell me.... What is it ? She asked taking the juice glass.

"I~~~I am expecting a baby, mother !"

When I spelled out my words, she gasped. She kept startling at my face. I was had nervous too.

"Since when ?" She asked me.

"I just knew that since yesterday.... I have no idea about this, mother.This is my first time to facing a pregnancy." I said to her nervously.

"Why didn't you tell me this, when as soon as you knew this, Son ?" She asked me while sitting with me.

"I just wanted to tell this firstly to Gem, mother. But I'm sorry for not telling you."
I turned to her face and said to her.

"So~~~~Gemini know this ?"

I thought, before tell a answer to her. Because if I tell the truth, then definitely, she'll scold to Gem. But if I won't tell her, then I wouldn't able to get a help from her. I thought a lot.

"He still doesn't know this ! Doesn't it !" She held my shaking hand and started to touched. Her touched, made me cry.

"Please, mother~~~Don"t scold him. He didn't do anything. I was the one who asked a child from him...."I cried and cried more, saying.

"Son..... Don't cry ~~~its not good for you ! But we have to tell this to Gemini !"

"I tell him tonight, mother. I think, he come home tonight." I said wiping my tears.

"Why this ?? So you don't even know what time is he come to home ? ~~~~ Why is this Son? ~~I told you to look that what he doing when he not around you. Have you thought about what I said bef~~"

I cut her words !

"I trust him, mother ! I trust my husband, mother. I trust him, mother. I trust him." I said her,again and again repeating with my straight words.

She didn't say anything to me. She starred at my face and I kept was sobbing.

"He is a father now. I think he'll change because of his child. His child is in my womb mother. I'm sure that he'll do love to our child. I trust him, mother !" I added while sobbing.

Have a nice day❤️ byby❤️