Pain Is Lonely

4

"I DON'T KNOW ! WHAT THE FUCK IS IT !"

When I was making our dinner I heard that Gem was in a phone call.

But he yelled to someone who talked to him.

But I'm sure that was a business call.

I won't ask him about his business stuffs. If I ask, then he repeats me by many many bad words.

"Fucking hell"

Gem mumbled as coming to the kitchen.

"What's the matter Baby? Is everything okay?"

I asked him giving a fruit juice to calm.

But he didn't tell me anything about the phone call. I knew it that he won't tell me. So I didn't ask again either.

"If there anything need, tell me. If I can help I would love to help."

I said and went to cook again.

"I don't have works tomorrow !"

I heard Gem's voice behind me. I turned to back and look at him.

"Why is that? Is everything okay?"

I asked him, because "No office" word is too rear to hear to my two ears.

"After you done come to the bed !"

I gasped with his words at that moment. I couldn't say anything. I kept looked at his face.

His cold words gasped mine. I swallowed my saliva for fear.

I don't know why, but I feel something strange.

"Did you hear me or not !"

He put down the fruit juice glass on the sink which I given him and asked coldly.

"I heard Gem."

I said looking into his eyes. I really love my husband. My eyes full of tears.

Again I don't know why. I'm happy. But always when I happy there is a pain too.

I couldn't understand why is that. But that pain and my happy always had together.

"Gemini !"

I stopped my husband who was going from kitchen.

"Why? " he didn't stop walking.

"Thank you !"

As soon I said that he stopped and looked at me. I'm sure he did see my pured teary eyes.

But he didn't say anything.

Anything !

I felt sad again. But again I felt my happy as usual with that pain.

I wiped my tears and went back to do work.

🔞

When I entering our room, my husband has standing beside by the table which placed by near the bed.

He only had wore, his towel. I went towards to him and hugged him from back.

I know that he doesn't like it. But I really wanted to do. I don't know. No matter how he doesn't like it, I want to do love with him.

I closed my eyes, hugging him. I sniffed his scent.

"What are you doing Gem?"

I asked Gem. Because I heard unwrapping sounds.

"Unwrapping a condom !" He said calmly.

I looked at his face again and sat on the bed slowly.

Why his words rude like this.

"Won't you take off your pant?"

He asked me, looking at my whole body.

I looked down and started to unbutton my top t-shirt.

"Its just enough the pant !"

I looked at him after his words.

"But......"

I couldn't finished my words.

He suddenly came to on the bed and took off his towel, showing me, his everything.

I saw his penis and that was so big. I was scared.

Because this is my first time to face this kind of situation.

Then he tried to pulled my pant to legs.

"But Gem,,,, my top shirt!!!"

I asked him, while he was removing my pant.

"Let's think only about our need."

" Then won't we do kiss ?"

Finally I asked him. Because its seems he didn't need to kiss me. I could see that.

"I won't kiss !"

His rude words, broke my heart again.

Kissing, love words, any lovely touches.....

He didn't give me anything.

I laid down holding his shoulders, on the bed closing my eyes.

I felt tear drops falling down from my cheeks as soon as he spreading my thighs.

He looked to find my hole while spreading my butt cheeks.

I lifted my waist to help him.

He didn't kiss my any parts of mine.

He rubbed his penis with mine.

That feel given me happiest. But...... But.... There hadn't a love.

He didn't do love me, when we have sex.

He only thought it as a need. Not as a love.

~~~Ah~~ehhh-----------GE~~mm~~

My words spelt out like that.

I grabbed his shoulders when I couldn't bear his rub.

He rubbed his penie rudely. When he was in his climax, he lifted my waist making my penie touch to his penie more and more.

After his rubbed, he took a condom which was near by the table beside me.

I swallowed my saliva when he took the condom packet.

Actually I was afraid this. I'm sure he could felt my scared.

But he didn't say anything.

"Don't be scared , I'll be gentle!"

I hoped that words from him.

He didn't make my heart by loving words.

He didn't even try to lose my fear.

I felt sad.

I saw when he was wearing the condom. Are we really to going have sex? That was the only thought what I thought.

I couldn't even say that I'm afraid. Because I'm sure that he won't care. So thought to be silent.

I grabbed my top t-shirt tightly when he spreading my thighs.

I felt that tip of his penie touching my hole.

Then,

Our room echoed by my screams and moans.

I want give him this. I want make my husband happy.

That feeling gave me a happiest feeling again. No matter how I'm afraid this. I know that this is my first time. But he's my husband. I must give him, his rights as a wife of him.

Okay....exams are coming again. Work work work !!!!

I'll back. But not soon!

Have a nice day❤️ byby❤️