IT will never be like before again. Iyon ang gustong itatak ni Regan sa kanyang isipan dahil kahit anong pilit niyang ayusin ang ginawa niya noon ay hindi na nito mababago pa ang mga kasalanan niya kay Rocket pati na din sa mga anak niya. Tama nga naman ang kasibahan na saka mo lamang malalaman ang mahalaga sa buhay mo kapag nawala na ito; and that's what Regan is feeling right now. Everything is already fucked up. He couldn't even get himself closer to his sons without Rocket being mad at him every time he tried to be a responsible father.
Hindi niya alam kung anong naisipan niya at gusto niya nang mapalapit sa kambal. Was it because he wanted to get into Rocket's good side so he can fuck her again? Or was it because he's anticipating being with the sons he tried killing and make it up with all the mistakes he did? Hindi niya alam. Hindi maintindihan ni Regan kung anong gusto niya. Hindi niya alam kung bakit bigla na lang niyang naisipan na maging malapit sa mga 'to at ibigay ang mga bagay na hindi niya nabigay noon. But just the thought of not being with the twins is suffocating him and he would do anything in this world just to have them closer.
"Boss." Nabalik si Regan sa kanyang sarili nang lapitan siya ni Uriel at may mga papeles na nilapag sa kanyang harapan. "I already collected the remaining clips of the CCTV from where Raoul Guevarra was last seen in Germany and found that he gave some envelope to the man he's talking to."
"Is it important?" tanong niya habang binubuklat ang mga papeles kung saan nakasaad dito ang mga screenshot ng video sa CCTV. It contains the blurred photos of Rocket's dad talking to a man and the timeframe where he gave an envelope to him.
"I guess so?" sagot ni Uriel na kinatango niya. "We wouldn't know if it's important unless we get a hold of that envelope."
"How would you do that then?" he asked before turning his gaze to him. Hindi naman umimik si Uriel na kinahinga niya nang malalim. "There are two possible things in my head right now. First is this man being somehow related to Raoul; maybe he's an agent or probably close to that occupation. And second but impossible is this man could be an underground messenger of some shitty organization. But the question in my mind was what Raoul's connection to those men is? I mean he's a government slave that time so why would he get affiliated with those kinds of people?"
"Good theories, boss. Raoul Guevarra has a lot of mysteries, that's why the IIA deleted all his files and even his identity. There's also a question in my mind, though." Uriel said and sat across from him. Tinaasan naman ito ng kilay ni Regan. "Remember when you told us that Camilton busted Rocket's identity to you? I wonder why he didn't tell you that after Rocket came to the whore house. It took a month for you to discover it and the information Evo got about the spy. It was all wrong, right?"
Nagsalubong ang kilay ni Regan nang maalala 'yun. "So, someone is playing with me from the very start."
Uriel nodded. "Exactly what I'm thinking." He answered and held onto his chin. "If someone is doing that, then who's trying to play dumb and seek to you, boss?"
Regan stayed silent as he thought of the same thing. He wasn't paying attention to small details before because he was more focused on his anger at Rocket. Ni hindi man lang niya pinakinggan pa ang mga eksplanasyon ni Camilton noon dahil mas pinangunahan siya ng inis niya at ang pagnanais niyang paslangin si Rocket. Things had been out of his hand since then and here they are right now after five years, going back to the time when it all started.
"Damn." Mahinang usal niya at napapikit bago niya hinilot ang sentido.
"I could go back to Philippines to talk to Camilton if you want." Suhestiyon ni Uriel na kina-iling niya.
"I'll do that myself but for now," he paused and stood up. "We'll go back to the hospital and see if Rogue is already doing well. By the way, get me some flyers of schools or whatever the shit they call it and give it to me today. I want it to be a private school and boys exclusive only."
