Happy New Year, greeniacs!
IT felt like life was starting to get revenge on him; that's how Regan feels after the conversation he had with Giorgio. When he was in this kind of situation before, he kills. He finds someone to give all his frustrations with by beating them up until death. He finds comfort by getting laid with women or torture someone until they give up. But it's different now. He's not in his personal circle anymore. Kailangan niyang makisama sa mga bago niyang kasapi dahil kung pipiliin pa din niyang manatili sa dating siya ay mas lalo lang niyang pinaglayo ang gatla na meron siya at ng mga anak niya.
Tama nga ang sinasabi ng kanyang mga pinsang nagsipag-asawa na. A parent would do anything for their children. He couldn't understand it before but now he does. Regan would do anything for the sake of his children's happiness. He wanted them to be free, a right that he failed to give them. It was only for a momentary, but he tried to give them the father that they wanted before everything became fucked up. He knows it's not enough and he knows that it will never happen again.
Tahimik ang silid na kanyang kinaroroonan habang kasalo ang isang bote ng whisky. Regan lit a cigarette before leaning his head on his hand trying to fight the drunkenness he's feeling. Ilang saglit pa ay mahina siyang natawa. The amusement he has for this situation is impeccable. From the very start, he's just a puppet; it was as if he's in a freak-show to please someone, a machine that's only set to obey East and kill. Idagdag pa ang mga rebelasyon na sinaad ni Rocket at ang mga kondisyon ni Giorgio na hindi niya kayang sangayunan.
A knock on a door brought him back to his senses. He placed the bottle on the table before he put the cigarette on the ash tray. Regan stood up and felt everything was blurry and slow-motion. Dahan-dahan siyang lumapit sa pinto bago 'yun binuksan at tila nawala ang pagkalasing na nararamdaman niya nang makitang si Rocket ang tao sa labas nito.
"H-hey..." his speech is slurred.
"Have you been drinking?" Tumaas ang kilay nito bago pumasok sa loob ng kanyang kuwarto. Nakita niya ang pagtingin nito sa paligid. "We need to talk, Regan."
"You know you're not supposed to be here." He spoke before closing the door. "Mrs. Schiavone." pangaasar pa niya.
"You think this is funny?" she raised a brow.
"Do I look like I'm laughing at this situation?" Balik niyang tanong sa babae. "Rocket, you're marrying Giorgio. You're hooking yourself up with someone more dangerous than I am. You're putting our children in hell."
"We've been rather far than in hell when we were with you, Regan." She answered, making him shut up. "I don't have any choice, Regan. I don't want to accept the organization that you have. Hindi ako ang tao na kayang tumayo sa mga katulad niyo."
"You have choice Rocket, but you chose to ignore it."
"I have choices?" she scoffed. "What else do I have, Regan? You think giving Giorgio an heir is a good idea? I won't let another child suffer because of that!"
"Then marry me instead and I'll take care of everything." Matapang niyang sagot sa dalaga. Napatanga naman ito sa kanya at ilang saglit pa ay humagalpak ito ng pagtawa na kinasimangot niya.
"Are you fucking kidding me?" she said between her laughter. Tumigil din naman ito bago tumitig sa kanya. "What made you think that I'll marry you, Regan?"
"I'm frustrated, alright?! Do you know how I feel after everything Giovanni told me earlier? I felt shit! I felt used. I couldn't remember anything from the past. I am trapped, Rocket! I still feel like a prisoner! I can't choose between accepting what Giorgio wants or just forget everything and fucking go home because neither what I choose, I'll still be fucking away from my children!"
