Homeless Vain

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"M-me?" Kevin flinched, subtly swallowing the lump in his throat. "W-why?"

"What do you mean with why?" I crossed my arms, lazily looking at him. "I'm stuck here with you and whose fault that your name is Kevin Moon? I can't help thinking about the moon."

I chuckled, faking my expression as if I was joking when the reality was far than that. I was serious, everything I'd said was all correct.

However, on Kevin's face, was that a relief I saw?

His movement was subtle that it barely seen but I was sure I saw him gulping, his tense face relaxed in the next second as soon as I clarified.

Was he glad?

It was then, I pushed the chair I seated on backward before jolting up. The end of my dress was slightly rolling upwards that I had to lift one foot to fix it back.

Kevin just watched me did all the work, probably in standby mode if he was needed to help but he seemed to forget or maybe did not know that I rarely seek for a help.

However, little did I know, a help was what I needed.

I failed to find my balance while standing on one foot, I was staggering and nearly falling down. Lucky that I was quite fast by reaching for the desk for the support.

"You okay there?" He questioned, his hand was stalling in the air in front of me. "You could get hurt Ivy."

"I'm ok now," I said with a smile, standing tall on my feet, hands cupping my waist. "Don't you think we should go back to the hall?"

He stood up as well, straightening his crumbled shirt, "if you insist. Wait.. are you really okay if we go back there?"

His eyes that were looking into mine were questioning. It was as if he didn't mind to stay here all day with me. Anything as long as I don't have to battling the anxiety inside me.

And I hoped my assumption was right.

"I'm sure of it," I beamed, springing on my heels. "C'mon bro. Everyone must be waiting."

I beckoned as I walked first towards the door, Kevin hesitantly followed suit.

During this time, I felt something foreign inside my chest, when Kevin Moon was walking behind me.

It was electrifying yet scary or maybe secured? I couldn't tell which one. But, I did hope for this moment to last for a very long period.

This moment was like the lost moment I'd been searching of. The one which I wanted to show all the weaknesses I had that always being covered with the facade. The one that portraying only truths about myself without me having to keep lying.

The one which I could proudly tell him that I was not the perfect human being, not the strongest girl and not all-the-time positive human.

Only to Kevin, I wanted to show all of these sides.

100 meter away from the entrance of the school hall, my feet automatically halted, unable to move any further.

The trembles, as well as the coldness had returned back to me, the thought of seeing the hall full with people once again scaring me.

"Ivy.." Kevin stood in front of me, blocking my view from seeing the scary big building.

And that very moment, everything had come to normal again.

"Don't push yourself," he said, sighing next that sounded too deep. "We can go somewhere else. Come on."

He already moved a foot towards where his car was parked, beckoning me to follow. But this wasn't right, he shouldn't have done this. Not for me, not for anyone.