Homeless Vain

20

I feel so tired.

Though I didn't do much - mostly sitting in front of the laptop and continuing the draft of my new project, the tiredness was like I just done two laps of 1500m running.

If using a brain did drain our energy, then I had nothing to retaliate.

But, I was very sure that I was tired not physically but mentally. It almost feel like I was some kind of electronic device that was on low battery and I needed to be recharged.

In this case, I needed Kevin.

A week had passed since he moved out, and started his new job. Adaption phase would always be the hardest, I know. And for some reasons, I trusted Kevin, I just knew he would do well.

However, the one who didn't do well was me.

During this one week, we hadn't talked through calls anymore but texts. I assured him that it was fine but deep down I wasn't.

Texting means you can't expect when the person will answer you.

Yesterday, I did send him one text. Just a simple one.

'Is it okay there? Better than your previous job?'

The normal Kevin would be replying right away. If he wasn't able to, he would come back to me maybe after few minutes.

However, this time, from few minutes, it had been hours. He just came back to me this morning with another simple reply, 'so far still good'.

I wasn't complaining honestly, but I was worried. My head kept questioning whether everything was okay because Kevin Moon had a very high chance to keep his problem to himself.

And that wouldn't do him any good, right?

"If you ask me, I'd say he's still adapting", Evelyn assured, noticing how down I was today on my next stop in her cafe. "What exactly makes you worried?"

I turned my head slowly towards her, holding her gaze. She obviously was quick in reading my mood or actually my mind.

"He won't forget me, right?", I was contemplating to say it aloud, honestly. A part of me did worry if they judged me for feeling this way though me and Kevin were nothing other than friends.

Nonetheless, with Evelyn, it was a bit different. Even the most stupidest thing looked valid in her perspective.

"Ivy...", she called my name with a little sway at the end, her gaze on me was soft.

"You don't have to worry about that", instead of the girl, Jacob chimed in. He placed his hand on Evelyn's shoulder making the girl looked up but he himself was looking at me. "I'm sure, Kevin won't forget you".

"How sure you are?"

Jacob pulled a chair before plopping down, his angelic smile was still there, being glued to his face.

"You can see it yourself, Ivy. If you didn't tell us about him moving out for the new job, we won't know either. If you didn't let us know that he had problems in his previous workplace, we'd always think that he's fine there".

"He prioritizes you", Evelyn added. "This time too, I'm sure he will contact you as frequent as you two did before".

I honestly wanted to believe that, I want to hypnotizing myself that they were right but that wouldn't be that easy to do.

Easier said than done.

This whole Kevin thing made me unaware of my surrounding after the couple left. I didn't even notice that the vacant table next to me had been occupied, a 5-year-old girl was picking her coin under my table and also a male teenager was apologizing to me because he accidentally kicked my chair while passing by.