Homeless Vain

51

My fairy tale officially had ended. No, it barely even started.

I was deluded to think that all these seemed like a new hope for me to live the love life I had been dreaming of.

Maybe love is never meant for me, maybe the universe had already prepared something big for me that is not love.

Kevin never reached out to me. Not even a call or a text message asking how was I doing. It broke me a bit but I won't lie that it was expectable.

I didn't know the backstory, what happened after I left or did the get-together still go on like how Chanhee had planned. None of them had told me the real story, probably because none could get ahold of me.

Sangyeon told me to leave the town for a while, maybe to refresh my foggy mind or to turn a new leaf. It surely would take so much effort to get it done.

"I know how heartbreak works," he said as he drove me back home after picking me up somewhere in the street.

When it came out of his mouth, all that sounded emotional like it wasn't only cliche words one could've said. Like it was a sincere phrase that had come out from his heart. Like it was an experience he had been through.

But I didn't press him for details. I took his offer - a chalet reservation somewhere on an island.

"A gift from me. Go and don't think about anything else. Your mother will be under my care," he said when he passed it to me.

My usual self was always scared to go out anywhere alone but suddenly I became the bravest girl on earth, eagerly wanting an escape that I hoped could bring me into someone new when I came back.

The first two days were hard, specifically shutting down your own best friends. Evelyn had been calling, Daisy had been texting and Faye kept leaving voicemails.

However, I assumed they got the update from Sangyeon because the next day, all were quiet.

I resembled a living corpse, breathing but dead. The voices in my head were too loud, they didn't give me any space to be distracted.

The same thing kept lingering in my head.

What do I lack?

Am I not eligible to be loved?

What would've happened if I never pursued my love for him again?

Why did he break the promise he made?

Why this and why that?

All were clouding my mind just like how the fluffy clouds in the sky I viewed right now had turned orange just because they were so brave to cover the big hot sun during the dusk.

Oh, that's me - the sun. And the clouds were the voices in my head. Ironic how I'd shared something with nature.

The view of sunset always gave me a sentimental vibe, nonetheless how much I resented my life right now, no tears came out.

No more.

"You know what my parents said?"

Snapping back into reality, I whipped my head towards the demeanor who was sharing the bench with me.

He looked so leisurely with legs crossed, munching on the potato chips Sangyeon got for me that he'd found in my suite before we headed to this hilly area.

Chanhee.

Just one simple threat message which read, 'You better pick up my call before I make a ruckus' was enough for him to find out where I was.