In the Heart of Horizon (Sunset Avenues #4)

Chapter 37

Chapter 37

Shame 

      I couldn't even focus on signing the necessary documents that I needed to sign. Ni hindi magawang pakalmahin ng dagat o simoy nito ang puso ko. I used to love my work because it happens that I lead, supervise and communicate with people. I also get to enjoy the view of the hotel – our Bungalow Home is near here so it's convenient and relaxing.

Months back, it would have been so easy to sign it. Ibinaba ko ang hawak kong mga dokumento. It was so easy to do what was planned but it's now difficult to pursue it. Itinago ko iyon sa cabinet. Perhaps, that's a sign that I should thoroughly think about it. I mean, our passports are there.. but I don't think Hance is ready for another transition.

"Shall we take him to a restaurant for dinner?" he asked when we returned home.

"Other than Mcdo, he would prefer home cooked meals."

It was weird and unusual to be in that set-up. We are married.. but it seems that we are not. We are talking because of our child. We try our best to give what our child deserves. We try to compromise for him. And we never talk about the ordeal that we had signed for a month ago.

"Okay, I'll cook then. We'll fetch him later."

"We can save more time if I fetch him while you are cooking."

Tumango siya at nagpunta na sa kusina. I watched him ready the kitchen and the ingredients of the meal he is going to cook before I took his car out. I fetched Hance at his school. He greeted me with a kiss on my cheek and his usual stories of his day.

"Mommy, is he.. still in our house? Mr. Vivero?"

"Yes, he is still in our house. He's actually preparing for dinner."

"Okay.. Then.."

He was building his trust and it doesn't happen in an instant. It was already considered a progress that he asked about him. Ngunit naroon din ang takot na kasabay ng tiwala na ano ang mangyayari sa kung sakaling aalis man siya. And it is inevitable.

He never planned this before and it wasn't also in his plan now. Saturday came and we have agreed to.. at least put our work on hold and focus much of our time on our son.

Kinaumagahan, napabalikwas na lang ako ng bangon nang makita kong wala na sa tabi ko si Hance. Dahil tabi na kaming matulog pagkatapos ng aksidente, I would wake up by his arm wrapped around me and he would whisper 'mommy'.

Tinanong ko si Yaya Yoli sa kusina at sinabi naman niyang lumabas si Hance kasama.. si Superman.

I watched them at the seashore. May ilang metro silang distansya. Nakaupo si Hance sa isang foldable chair habang nakaupo naman sa buhangin si Van. Ang mga alaga naming aso ay nasa gilid ni Hance na parang binabantayan nila ito at nakikiusisa sa kung anuman ang pag-uusapan ng dalawa.

It seems like they woke up early in the morning to watch the sunrise.

Ibinaba ko ang tasa ng kape at pinagmasdan sila mula sa balkonahe ng bahay. My heart was bursting.. for joy.. for the longing.. and all those emotions I kept inside my heart.

Hance introduced our pets to his amused father. My son considers our pet dogs as family too.. At ang pagpapakilala niya sa mga alaga namin kay Hance ay isang hakbang.

"This is Bumble Bee and this is Megatron." I heard Hance in the distance.

"Transformers, huh?"