The Perfection of My Insanity

Blaze 2

He was tall, dark and sexy. He was the type of boy you saw in the hallway and walked a little different when you passed him. He was the guy you desperately wanted to impress but knew that you should stay away from. He was nothing but trouble. A troubled and selfish boy that you somehow thought you could change.
He was a professional heart breaker and you thought you would be different from the other 5..6..8..or how ever many other girls he had ruined.
That's his plan, that's how he wins. His game plan isn't a plan at all. He did nothing but warn you to stay away. And that's how he got you. You were warned by him and everyone else you know but you didn't listen. You were blindsided by your own stubbornness.
So when you sit alone with the heart that you gave him, the one he returned in pieces, you had no one to blame but yourself. The one heart that you had was ripped to sheds by his own. Because, his heart was heavily guarded by a brick wall laced with barbed wire. Tearing down anything and everyone that dared to get in and protecting what was already on the verge of dying inside.
He was complex and mysterious, which made him all the more tempting.
He was one of the oldest sins in the book. Hell, he might as well be the devil himself. With the face and body of an angel and the heart and soul if a demon.
The way he walked, the way he spoke. The way he just knew... everything. Just by looking at you he could tell you thing that's you didn't know about yourself. And even his personal space issues were somehow seductive.
But all those little thing were held together by those grey eyes. The ones you secretly dream about. The ones that you feel are watching you but you don't mind.
He was Jason Willings. He was your best friends brother and a beautiful serpent from hell, a snake if you will. And you were a black panther, just as dangerous and just as damaged and troubled. But he got you. No, it wasn't when you spoke to him. No, it wasnt when you first kissed. But it was when he saw you across the room. When he got the twinkle of the devil back in his eyes and thought to himself 'Damn, I'm going to ruin the fuck out of this girl's life' And that's exactly what he's going to do. And you, poor helpless you, can't do a damn thing about it. Cause it was never your choice, it was his.

Diamond's POV:

I thought all these thing about him. The boy sitting in front of me was bad news. And I refuse to be next in his game. I won't let that happen. I've lost too much and I've fought too hard to fall victim to some sexy bad boy that I barely know.
No, no, no I'm gonna end this game right now
"Here" said Casey passing me this new joint Jason had rolled. It'd been about an hour of random laugher and small talk. Ronny had finally come and passed out in David's room. I guess he wasn't in the mood to stick around. He just walked in, looked at David and said he needed a minute. After kissing Casey on the cheek and walking around the corner to David's room. Casey and Ronny were a cute couple. He had this kind if dirty blonde hair and light eyes. He was tall and fit, real gentle hearted looking.
Casey on the other hand was more of a wild card.
"So how'd you two meet?" asked David. He didn't look high at all but I guess he could have built up a tolerance. Casey tuned in as I took a hit and passed the joint to Jay. I coughed a bit before Jason passed to David.
"My locker" I laughed thinking about that day. That day was full of shit, it was terrible but I can't stop laughing.
"No, it was the nurse" he said with his head tilted back lazily and chuckling. His deep voice filled the air and it reminded me that not only did I try to fight the captain of the football team but I damn near plowed over Liam trying to run out of the nurses office.
"So are you two like....?" David asked. Of course the answer was no, I think.
But then that depends on the question. Was he asking if Jay and I were dating or were we fucking. But the answer was no, right.
"No, just close" answered Jason kind of avoiding their eyes a little. I'd never seen him avoid anything before, it was interesting, but he played it off well. Especially with that perfectly vague answer he just gave.
"Oh yeah, I bet you're real close" says Ronny entering the room an taking a seat next to Casey. He kissed her on the temple and she swatted at his chested. "What he's not allowed to have other friends" said Casey. At this point I was just eating chips to avoid talking and following who ever was.
"Not friends that look like that" David said gesturing to me. I wanted to say something like 'Hey I'm right here' but I decided against it. Besides I think that was a compliment. My eyes caustically looked over to Jason who was already starring at me.
That all to familiar chill shot threw my body and I quickly looked away. He looked pissed and I didn't know if it was something I did or if it was what David said or the situation itself. Either way he was not happy.
"Jason's had plenty of hot 'friends'" joked Ronny, "of course none of them were platonic friends"
Casey smacked him on the chest again. "We aren't having sex" Jason said and everyone stopped talking and all the attention was brought to him, "Jesus fucking Christ I don't fuck every girl I know" he's rolled his eyes in annoyance. "Name one" David smirked. The conversation wasn't as light and jokey as it was before. Now I think it was kind of getting serious. Which lead me to think that if he can't name one then that means he fucked Amy or Casey or both. And that means I really am no different.
"I never fucked Casey" he said as a matter of fact. A weight was lifted from me and I was so damn happy that he didn't fuck Casey. Ronny didn't look amused and it seemed like we were in the same boat.
"That doesn't count she's like your damn sister" said David. I'd hope they would stop going at it like but Casey had a look on her face like they do this all the time.
"Ok fine I never fucked that Amber chick" said Jason.
"Dude, her name was Ashley" said David.
"That blonde girl?" Asked Casey. I was so confused and slowly coming down from my high. Was she really such a whore that they couldn't even remember her name.
"Amy" I finally said with the deadest of expressions. I literally saw the light bulbs and snapping fingers as if to say 'Oh right that's it'. But I couldn't fight the little smile tugging at the conner of my lip because Jason thought her name was Amber.
"You didn't bag that?" Asked David. It sounded more like an unbelievable statement then a question and when was the least time I heard someone say 'bag that'.
"Come on guys, I have standards" laughed Jason.
"Apparently half the football team doesn't" I said out loud. Everyone burst out in laughter, even though it wasn't that funny. It was a slip but apparently a funny one. I thought to myself that they must still be high.
"OK, ok now just one more question" said Ronny attempting to calm everyone. "Damn it not this shit again" Jason groaned. We we're no longer passing around the joint and over half the food had been eaten. "Calm down Jew Jew bean, the question's no for you" Ronny said staring at me with his light eyes. It wasn't just him, it was everyone, looking at me and waiting for him to ask the question.I heard Jay call him a duck under us breath, most likely for calling him Jew Jew bean, whatever the fuck that means and I could feel everyone's eyes but most importantly I could feel his. Those God damn gray eyes burning into the side of my face.
"Was he what you expected him to be?" Ronny finally asked.
What the hell was that supposed to mean?
"I already said we're not fucking" said Jason with an annoyed expression. I didn't know how to answer this question it was something that could've been taken a million ways.
"I'm not talking to you and I'm not talking about sex you dirty boy get your mind out if the gutter" joked Ronny. It made me giggle a little bit but I stopped when I felt those gray eyes again.
"Tik-tok, sweetheart" said David make the clock sound with his mouth.
"I don't know yet" I said playing with the string on my pants leg, "A little I guess"
"Boo!!" said Casey booing me off the imaginary stage. David joined in too and I just laughed along. I could almost feel the utter annoyance radiating off of Jason but I tried my best to ignore it.
Is Jason what I expected him to be?
"Yes" I said digging my nails into the carpet. It was like I already knew the answer and so did they but they wanted to see if I would say it. It was like I had to drag the word out of my own mouth. Like something didn't want me to say it. Like he didn't want me to say it.
"How so?" Asked David leaning his head against his hand.
Well damn I wasn't prepared to write a whole damn essay on why Jason Willings is the why he is but what would I expect from an honors kid.
It got me thinking though, about the things that he's done. Like last night in the the bathroom or the time in "detention" event the first time we met. I bet I was just a game to him.
"I don't know I guess he just is" I answer not really caring or not if I get booed. He wasn't what I expected, really, he was much worst. The person that I thought was Jason Willings was a stuck up bratty frat boy who got everything he wanted. He was someone I would never talk to let alone relate to. This Jason was much worst, he made you think he was an injured kitten and you, in an attempt to be a savior, fell for it. He sat in his lions den and lured you into his trap. And all you wanted to do was help a kitten. I just wish I could erase it all. I wish he never stopped me at my locker. I wish he never kissed me in detention. I wish I never fucking met him. I won't let him do this..this..what ever this is that he's doing to me. I can't let him.
"Ooh shit" said David pushing himself off the carpeted floor and fiddling with his watch, "oh shit, oh shit, fuck!" He started grabbing all the empty bowls of chips and bag of other snacks off the small table. He was running them into he kitchen when he yelled back at us that his parents would he home any second. Everyone scattered like roaches, grabbing what they could, opening windows and spayed what very they could get there hands on.
"Your time management fucking sucks, man!" Yelled Jason as he opened the last window.
"What are they going to say when it's freezing in here" I asked. Obviously I was the only one to take notice to the fact that it's fuckng winter.
"I'll take open window over weed any day" he replied from his bedroom. I guess he was hiding his "stash".
Ronnie was making the table spotless. Casey was spaying Febreeze and Jason was helping toss the empty snack bags. Everyone was doing somewhat of a routine where as I stood here like a statue.
The living room was now clean and everyone met around the small table again but standing this time.
"Do you think the smell is gone yet?" said Casey crossing her arms over her chest, not because of an attitude but because it was freezing. I could hear the wind coming in threw the windows and feel the goosebumps start to rise on my skin. Its reminded me of the roof top sun rise I had watched with Jay not too long ago. A couple hours ago actually.
"Yeah, I got the rest guys you just go before my parents get here" he said scratching the back of his head.
The friendly side if me wanted to stay but the rational side was all too excited to get the hell out if there. Ronny put his jacket around Casey as they said their goodbyes to David.
"See you around Parker" she said with a smile but I could tell by see you around she meant she hopes Jason will keeps me around.