The Perfection of My Insanity

He did this

I walk home to avoid riding the people on the bus.I'm still soking wet from the ran and my heart still bumped with adrenaline from what happened on the roof. I'll always have a good memory of that place now and nothing can change that.Even if I almost died.

"So where's your body guard" I hear a voice that I recognize as Harry.

"Liam isn't my body guard asshole he's my......friend"I said not turning around to look at him. Instead I look at the time I have to get home.I start walking a little faster.

"Aww where's the little virgin going huh"I hear Zayn yell behind me.

"Get her" Niall yell and I break out running. I feel a hand on my shirt just like what happen with.....Jake.

"Where you going"Louis says laughing but all I can thing about is Jake.

"Let go!"I scream.

'Get in the fucking house'

" No" scream louder and they push my to the ground.I look up and see Jake's face then Niall then Jake again.There are two battles going on right now.

Me vs. My Mind and Me vs. Niall.

"Jake stop" I scream out before thinking.

"Who the hell is Jake" Niall said his hand in mid-air.

"I -I h-he um....

"Out with it" he yells at me and I jump. All I see is Jakes face on Niall's body.All I feel is pain and my own fear consumes me.

"Please just let me go"I beg for the first time in a log time. Shock takes over there faces and just ley that with no emotion. Jake or Niall smirk at this and punch me in the face .Hit after hit soon his fists get tired and he tell them all to jump in.I was jump and knocked unconscious but I wasn't numb I could feel everything. I no longer had my brick wall I felt every kick, punch, slap and word and it hurt.When I woke up I was in the street.It was night out side and one of my eyes are swollen shut every limb I had was in pain as I put out a poor attempt to walk home. I feel and taste the blood on my swollen lips as I lick them. I reach the house I live in and look doen before opening the door.Wet mud and dirt covered close is what I see. I open the door and my dad is asleep on the couch eith the news on.

"Young adult Jacob Daniels was found stabbed 27 times in the chest, stomach and...." I cut of the tv and hed to the shower before my father wakes up. I didn't kill Jacob Daniels I killed Jake the drunken psychopath the tried to rape me..tewice. No I didn't kill anyone by the name of Jacob Daniels. Whe I get out the shower I make sure to put my clothes in a garbage bag. I put on some pajamas. I hear my mom's keys drop and my dad say something to her.

"Diamond get yo ass down here right fucking now" my father yells.

I walk down the stair not wanting to go through this at all.

"Where that hell have you been" he yells slaping me in the back up the head.

I don't answer him and he yelles at my.

"Answer me god damit" he pulls his hand up threatening to hit me.

"I walked home from school and lost track of time" I say without stuttering.

"You're a motherfucking liar" he yells at me not inches away from my face.I hold my ground.

"Lie again and I'm going to beat yo motherfucking ass "  he continues to yell in my face and I continue to hold my ground. He looks me in the eyes.The thing about my father is that I think he lives on my pain he gets his kicks from seeing me upset and then yell because I'm upset.

"That'd ok you can fotget about going to live with your fucking cousin" hr said and as soon as the words leave his lips I didn't believe him he does this a lot says that so I say I'm sorry but not this time.

"Oh you think I'm playing" he saids turning around and reaching on top of the fridge.He takes the ticket for my flight in his hand and rips it to pieces. That's when stap. He can't just do that he just can't fucking do that.

"UGH!!!!"I scream"I HATE YOUU!!!!!!" I scream at the top of my lungs. He smacks me in the face as my mother walkd in the room.

"I HATE YOU!,I HATE MYSELF!, I HATE IT HERE!" I yell not caring anymore.He took away the only thing I had to keep my from my bad place. No not just my father but Niall I would have been here and not past out in the street.

You skipped school though...

"They would have found out about that"I say out loud.The voices are acting up again.

Jake .Niall. Liam. Death. You killed him. Kill yourself. Die. Scream. Fight. You're Going Mad. don't listen to her....all the voices in my head I can't find my own.

"Ohh SHUT UP!!! SHUP UP!!!" I scream out loud pulling my hair.I can see the look on my parents face. I keep hearing the voices."GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I scream until I taste the metallic flavor in my lung and my face is so hot it feels like the surface of the sun.

You're holding your breathe stupid.Breath.

I try to breath but all thar comes out is a terrible wheezing sound. I can't breath.

Niall. Niall. Niall .It's his fault

                                            He did this