The Perfection of My Insanity

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Diamond Pov:

I stared up at the grey eyed boy as he looks down at me. I can tell by his intimidating frame, dark close and black lip ring that he's what you call a "bad boy".

"You must be new here"  he say as he shoves his large hands into him front pockets.

"What gave it away" I reply, letting my sass take over.

"Well,you don't seem to be too worried about stand right in front of me" he says now crossing his armes in front of his chest and I can see small tattoos creep from under his shirt sleeve.

"Should I be" I say looking at his face again. If you were to say this boy was unattractive you would be a liar.

"Look around" he says now pulling his eyes off of me and onto to the bussy hallway.I follow his eyes and see people taking quick glaces at him and then immediately looking the other way.

"So they're scared of you?" I say looking back up at him but his eyes never leave the hallway.

"Completely" he answers with a smirk.

"Well...I'm not so can you move from my locker" I say begining to rock on the heels of my feet. He finally looks back down at me and moves just enough so I can get into my locker.

"You should be" I hear him say but when I look up from putting my books in my locker he's gone.

I decide to just brush it off and head to class.I take my seat in the far back not wanting to cause any unwanted attention on my 'first day'.

The tracher goes on about some test that the other students are having later in this week but I tune out seeing that it doesn't aply to me beacuse I just got here.

For the rest of the class the teacher just talks for like what seemed forever and I can tell that the majority of the class is zoned out too.

The bell rings signaling for my dismissal and I don't hesitate for a second. When I reach the door I take note on what the hallway really looks like without people flooding them. I see a girl walking down the hall followed by a couple other students.

She looks so familiar but before I could get a good look at her face she disappears in the crowd.

I have one more class before lunch and I take my seat in the back once again.

This teacher seems to be alot more happy about her job where as the other one didn't try to hide the fact that he is unhappy with his life.

Moments later the girl from the hallway with the long dark hair walks in class and I almost yell out her name.

"Ms. Willings,late again I see" The teacher say as she walking into class and takes a seat right in front of my. I know this is her I just know it has to be.

The teacher starts writing something down on what looks like a tarty slip.

"Care to tell me what your exucuse is this time" Says the teacher, who I have yet to learn her name. She walks over and hands the tarty slip over.

"Well I think I got caught up feeding the horses when I was leaving Narnia" she smirks and the class starts to giggle and laugh.The teacher just shakes her head and walks away.I can tell that this is a daily thing.

Before I can stop myself I let a 'Way to go Jade' slip from my lips.

She turns around with wide eye once she notices who I am. I'm suprised that she can notices me from all these years.

"Diamond! holly shit"she whisper yells. The smile on my face matches her's as she grabs her things and moves to the empty deck next to me. She looks the same, just slightly older.Same black hair.Same grey-blue eyes.I've missed her so much.

For the rest of the class period we caught up on old things.She told me about how her mother is finally leaving her father but how I shouldn't feel bad about the devorce because her father used to drink and beat her mother.She says that she is more than happy about them separating and that her mom and brother are too.I've met Mrs. or Ms.Willings a few times and she was always so welcoming and understanding...all the thing I wish my mother was.

I told Jade about everything that happened when she left. It's not like I had a choice thought,she knows me like the back of her hand. I told her about Niall,Liam,my mother and the unwanted pills,my coma and how I came to slip into it, and even Jake. Of coarse I didn't tell her about me murdering him but about him trying to.....yeah.I still see his face when I close my eyes and when I'm alone I can sometimes hear the police report play over and over in my head.

stabbed 27 times

27.........    27 times Diamond you stabbed him 27 fucking times !!!!!!!!!           

I was snatched out of my insane thoughts by Jade going on about how shy and quiet Niall used to be and how she can't believe he turned out to be a psyco. Thankfully she didn't say another word about Jake or my parent.I guess she senced how shaken up I am about the two subjects. I do in deed hate Niall with every fiber in my being but I would take a conversation about him over my murder victim/ almost rapist anyday.

Sometimes it scares me that I can just say these thing in my head.That I can say it to myself and not feel anything. I can say that if I had to do it over I would kill Jake.

Again Jade snaps me out of my thoughts and I'm greatful.Before I didn't have anyone to wake me up.

"I'm sorry Diamond I should have been there for you through all that stuff like a real friend instead of across the world..." she says in one breath.

"Hold on wait, you're not seriously blaming yourself for what happened are you?" I say looking at her.I can see the guilt on her face.

"What do you mean across the world" I say trying to get that guilty look off of her face.

"We went to England...for Jay. He w-was...well...he was having these nightmares about our dad and what he did to mom.He said he would keep hearing these voices in his head and when he got mad he would break everything and when there was nothing left to break...he would go after my dad. They would go at it and when Jay was done he would isolate himself from everyone.My mom got tired and desparate so she found a "great" therapist in England.When that faze was over and Jay didn't get better we moved back here" she says with teary eyes.I had know idea her life was like that.She was so determind to make my life better when her home was broken.

"I-I had know idea.Is that why you knew w-what to do...with me because of your brother" I ask but already knowing the answer.

"Yeah,I guess I saw what my brother was going through and I didn't want you going through the same...you know" she sniffles and glances at the clock on the wall. She gathers her thing and I do the same. The bell ring dissmissing us once again and Jade and I walk out of the class room.

"So enough of this sad stuff, is there anything good to talk about"I say breaking the silence,"Tell me more about you brother"

"Well aside from his tough guy stance he's really an ok guy if you get to know him.He's acually a real ladies man.. at least for the girls who want to fill some bad boy fetish and the whores and the ones who arn't afraid of him"  she tells me and he seems like a good guy.. a bit a man whore but other than that he seems ok.

"I just feel bad for the girls who fall for him" she sighs out as she stuffs he books in her locker.

"What do you mean?" I ask right.when we reach my locker.

"It just that every once in a while there's a poor girl who falls hoplessly in love with him and want to have a relationship" she replys and we walk towards the lunch room.

"Ok...and" I say

"They don't understand until it's too late that Jay just wants....well you know" she says out of the side of her mouth.

"Got it" I knod as we reach an empty lunch table and take a seat.I spot Liam and wave him down. He takes a seat right next to me and gives me a warm smile.