The Perfection of My Insanity

Heart stop

Diamond's Pov:

So life asked death. 

"Death ,why do people love me but hate you" she asked as the flowers grew and the green grass swayed in the perfect wind.The birds sung a song with no name and the trees danced in this paradise most people called earth. Suddenly the sky darkens and the trees faded into nothing. The beautiful birds turn to black crows that screamed a painfull wave of sound. Everything has changed and nothing is as it was anymore. Death creeped up slowly but spoke honesty. 

" Because you are beautiful lie and I am a painful truth" he replied.

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I walked down the street and the memories flowed in, all the memories. All the pain. I hold myself tight as if when I let got I'll drown in my own thoughts. I think of my few happy memories like the begining of the sixth grade.

------------FLASHBACK------------

"Hey, Diamond" My old friend Jade yelled down the hall. She was always so nice and full of energy, but like always she left me. She moved away and I never saw her again. I still have her smile tucked away in my brain. From a distance I felt a pair of eyes on my and it felt like they never left .All the time just watch me and that feeling gave me anxiety. "Are you ok " a tall curly headed kid ask. I knodded my head while holding my math test in my hands that were soon yanked away. "Hey give me that back" I yelled. "Make me bitch" he yelled pushing me away and holding it high in the air. I jumped my highest to try to get it back but I couldn't , he was too tall. I pushed him back and he hesitantly punched me in the face. I fall to the floor and look up at him. A small glimpse of pity and saddness in his eye and through I never saw it again I still remember. I remember it all, from the boiling tears that standed my cheeks.To the cuts and scars that paint my skin. The words kept running through my head. All the hurt and pain they caused me and the things I 've become because of them. 

----------FLASHBACK--------------                            OVER

I was brought out of my thought by a sharp pain in my arm. It was a rock thrown by not Niall but someone much worse...Jake. 

I kept telling myself to run,run as fast as your little legs can carry you and don't look back never look back. I tried and tried but I couldn't move I couldn't speak. I was trapped and I couldn't do a thing about it. 

"Hey,kiddo remember my" he spoke. I can't believe he's talking as if he didn't you know try and rape me. 

"Come on in" he says walking towards my.I tried to scream but nothing.I tried to move but nothing. Suddenly I had a flashback of the house. Me in the backyard screaming, crying trying to get away. My fingers gripped my sides and I could move again I wiggled my toes and they moved I through my clothes at him and ran. "Get in the fucking house" he yelled after me. He grabbed my shirt and pulled me close. I fight as hard as I could as he drug my into the house . The gravel from the concrete cutting my legs and my srceaming going unheard.  

" I was going to undress you myself but I see my little slut did it for me." He said referring to Liam's close. 

"No"I yelled at the top of my lungs. His hands everywhere and he touched me weird. I don't want this please someone help me. My eyes glued to the door as I fight him off hoping that Liam would come through and save me. But no. Jake slapped my in the face and I fell to the floor. My first thought was run to the kitchen and I did.I was so close when Jake grabbed my legs andI fell to the floor. I grabbed the cabbets and held on for dear life. Using my other foot I kicked him in the face giving him a bloody nose and rushing trought all the drawers. The word stuck in my head. knife. knife. knife. knife.  

As soon as the my fingers gripped the cold metal I was pushed back the the ground. His hands were everywhere and his lips on my neck causing a sharp pain.The knife had fallen to the ground just beyond my reach. The voices might come back now.

Mabe you will die hear and people can be happy .

He's bigger        He's stronger just give up.

It's not like peopke will care anyway.

But then again you don't want them too care do you?

The voices were right I don't want Really people to care .I don't want the tears from a funeral or from grieving  faces. I didn't want to ruin their lifes by being born but I did. I don't want to ruin their lifes by dieing either so I don't want them to care. It's better that way.

He's bigger then me

He's stronger then me

They all are ,Niall,Harry,Louis,Zayn. They all are.

I was just about to give up when my finger tips touched the knife and I stabbed him in the shoulder. He yelled in pain and I did it again and again.His lifeless body rolls over and I climb on top of him.I cut and stabbed him.......everywhere and if you where a by standard you would say I need to be in an insane asylum. At the moment I don't care. I smile and laugh at the knife plunging in and out of him like butter so easy so simple to take a life away. I had to do it , he would have tried to rape be again.

I was stabbing a man whos heart alread stopped but that's not the scary part .The scary part is.......I liked it.