The Perfection of My Insanity

Bar Mitzvah

I don't know what I expected from him, I know I just didn't want him to leave like that.On the other hand, he doesn't owe me anyhing, he doesn't owe me any explanations.

I know this,I know this is all true so why am I so pissed. He's just my best friend's brother and that's all,nothing else. I know this, I know this is true so well in hell do I find myself wondering what his next surprise lesson is, why do I wonder what he thinks of me.

My phone rings and I fall out of my pathetic mind rants.

"Hello" I answer sounding more depressed than I would like to.I glance at the time and my eyes grow wide when I realize that it's 8:34.

"Hey,doom cookie you were supposed to be here like fifteen minutes ago" she complains and by the nick name 'doom cookie' I know without a doubt that it's Jade.

"Hello, Earth to Diamond get your ass here and in this dress right now before I come over there and drag your ass down the street" She says continuing to bitch about this Bar Mitzvah through the speaker of my cell phone.

"Hello is the famous Jade Payne, talking to me" I laugh trying to get her off my back,"Look Jade I already told you that my parents said yes but there is no way in hell they are going to drive me" I explain to her.

"OK then I'll just have Jay come and get you" She says.Damn it, there is no way I'm ready to face him yet.

"No, no I'll find a different way, you don't have to-

"Too late he's on his way and your dress is at my house anyway" She says quickly.

"Jade" I wine at her.I can't exactly blame her beacuse she doesn't know about Jay and I having a detention teaching session.

I hang up the phone and pack my overnight bag.This time I'm sleepong in Jade's room. I tell my parents that I have a ride and wait for Jay to come.

The sound of screeching breaks outside grab my attention and my heart jults when I see his red Dodge parked outside. This is going to be so fucking awkward.

"Hey" he says shortly.He's dressed in a tux but the bottom is replaced with black skinny jeans instead of dress slacks,I think it suits him better anyway.His arms are crossed and he's up aginst the car smirking at me as I walk towards him.I can see his grey eyes shining in the dark of the night.Beautiful.

"I can open the car door myself prince charming so there's no need to do it for me" I grin and he moves out of my way,walking to his previous spot in the drivers seat.

"Are you mad at me for something" He says not looking me in the eye and just keeping his eyes on the road.

"What makes you think that" I reply looking out of the window instead of at him.

"Nothing" He shrugs. The car is silent now and not even the radio is playing. Just awkward sighs here and there and my uncontrollable fidgeting.

"Are you sure you're not mad at me" He says only using one hand on the wheel as he drives.He's now staring at me and I thought he would turn back to road when I didn't answer but no, like the fucking psycho he is,he just kept starring.

"You're going to kill us both if you don't stop looking at me!" I yell at him and point at the stirring wheel.He just smirks at me and faces his eyes back on the road.

We pull up to his house and I jump out of the car almost before he park.       "What's the rush baby doll" He yells after me as I run towards the front door.Thankfully it was open when I rush past Jason's mom giving her a quick smile as my signal for hello. I race up the stair case and head straight for Jades room.Remembering what happen last time I knock first and wait for her answer.I can hear Jay walking in the door and placing his keys down,then his heavy foot steps up the stairs. I need her to open this damn door.