The Perfection of My Insanity

fucking liar

Jay's pov:

I can tell he's home now. Mommy is screaming and Jadie is shaking.I tell her to go in her room and lock the door so he can't get in. She's only five, she shouldn't have to see this. I run down stairs and daddy hits mommy and she falls into the t.v. Mommy hold her tummy and daddy was going to hit her again. I run up to him and kick him in the leg and punch him." Stop hitting my mommy!!!" I yell at him and he starts to take off his belt. I try to run but he grabbs me by my shirt and pushes me to the floor. He hits me and kicks me and it hurts really bad. But its ok because mommy andJadies are ok. It's almost over but mommy tries to stop him.

"He's only a kid ,stop" she yells at him and he slaps her and she falls to the floor and I run over to her. My baby brother lives in mommy's tummy and daddy was kicking him and hurts him. I lay down in front of mommy's tummy so he doesn't have to hurt him,he can just hurt me instead. He stops kicking and looks to the stairs. I look up at mommy and hold her tight. There's blood at the bottom of her dress now and she's crying alot. "You're not my daddy anymore" a little voice says at the top of the stairs.He smiles at Jadie and she ran like I taught her to do and locks her bedroom door.He tries to get her but she locked to door so he couldn't do bad things to her again. Me and mommy are on the floor now and after he is gone my baby brother is too. Jadie is ok but mommy's not ok and it's ok that I'm not ok because my baby brother doesn't have to meet daddy so he is safe now.

Why is daddy so mean to us

Why does daddy hurt mommy and Jadie.

Why does daddy hate us

The faces fade away and so do the memories the harder I hold on to her little body. They don't go away completely but a little is better than not at all. I can feel her breathing,her warmth and her heart beat and when she tries to get up I'm not ready to let her go. But I do anyway.

She rolls out off my bed and stretches her arms up high making her shirt rise up above her flat stomach.She walks over to my stereo and turns the music up a little before taking her previous seat against the wall.

She eyes look up and quickly meet mine.

"Can you stop starring at me" she says tucking a piece of hair behind her ear.

I wasn't starring at her I was looking at her.How the hell did she know I was awake anyway.

"Is there a reason why you pulled me into a death grip" she speaks.She starts running her fingers through her hair not making eye contact. I'm suprised Jadie.....I mean Jade didn't tell her about my little.....well you know.

"I wasn't holding you in a death grip" I choose to lie my way out of this awkward conversation even though something tells me that Diamond's not the type to just let things go that easy.

"But you were and right before that you mumbled something about someone hating you" she says slapping me out of my lie,"Were you having a nightmare?" she asks finally looking up from the carpet and her brow eyes meet my grey ones.

"No! I wasn't,nightmares are for fucking babies" he glare at her even though the question seemed more out of curiousity than to mock me.

"Well,if it wasn't a nightmare then why are you acking so defencive" she shoots back, "And you're acking like a fucking baby so its ok if you had a nightmare" she smirks and at this point I throw back the covers and get in her face.

"Listen, don't ack like you know anything about me ok I let you in my bed and already you ack like you mean something to me!!" she starts to stand up and uses her small hands to push me away from her. I stumble back a couple steps but that's it.

"Don't ack like such an asshole just because I caught you in a fucking lie and as for letting me in you bed that was a last resort for me and you know it!!" she screams at me and balls her fists. Her small hands start to shake.I open my mouth to say sonething but she cuts me off, " I'm not fucking done yet.I asked you a question I didn't ask you to marry me.I didn't say you gave a shit about me and in all honesty I would prefer that you didn't!!" she yells again.

For once I don't know what else to say she just exploded on me. I open my mouth again to say something but once again she cuts me off.

"Don't say sorry I fucking hate that word and if you say it I might blow up" she snaps and she crosses her arms.

"I wasn't..." I say quitely and she scoffs at me,"I was goin to tell you that your phone is ringing" I smirk at her. Her head shoots to the direction of the buzzing object and goes to answer it.