The Perfection of My Insanity

Ni

Diamond's Pov:

I wake up in my bed.Lord knows how I got there. I go to sit up and there is an aching feeling in my head and I flop back down. What the hell happened to my.

----------What Happened----------

"I'm talking to you motherfucker" yelled dad.There stood the girl with a blank look which inraged the father.His hand flies up smacking his daughter to the floor. Like a rag doll she just falls but still she has that look on her face.She's empty.

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I walk to the shower careful not to bump into my "parents" . The water still like lava and cuts still stinging and the vioces still present. I sit in the corner of the shower rocking back and fourth.

take the pills again.

                   it'll make the pain go away.

just run the bath water

            and stick your head underneath

"SHUT UP!" I whisper to myself.

           maybe you could make that gun upstairs usefull .....

      and pull the trigger .......just end it.

"shut up! shut up ! SHUT UP!!!!" I yell at the top of my lungs.

I know I should just end it. I should kill myself but I'm so close to leaving this hell.I'm so close to getting what I want. For this I have to fight hard, harder then I've ever fought in my miserable existence. This is one battle I'm going to win. I'm going to win ......or die trying.

Next Day

Liam switched his classes around so he could protect me from Niall and the other guys. That was nice. My "black outs" are less frequent and Amy the school whore decided not to wear so much make-up today so I don't feel like throwing up.

"Attention ,attention everyone" says the morning announcement lady."We are sorry to inform you all that a young adult has been murdered" she finishes and I tense up. The class room is filled with gaspes and mindless banter about going to go check out the body where as for me....my axiety takes over. My leg starts tapping and I mess with the wrapper that was left in my hoodie. "Are you ok"said Liam standing up as the bell rang for dismissal. I was too bussy being a nervous reck that I didn't notice he was next to me the entire time or that the class was ending. I stood up next to him giving him a reasuring smile that everything is ok. I know that he can tell I'm lieing with this smile I have .Even I can tell. We walk out of class and in an instant I hit a brick wall or.....no I hit Niall who is slightly less intelligent. He looks at me and then looks at Liam. I know what he is doing he is analizing the situation to come up with some lame joke about it.

"Well I see the little slut herself spread her legs wide enough to steal my mate" he says finally. Liam was about to say something to stick up for me but I cut him off.

   "Unlike some people I still have my virtue.....Whore-an." I spit with balled fists.

"Like I never heard that one before" he mutters under his breath.

   "Just get out of here Niall" Liam says putting his arm behind my back protectively.

"I wouldn't get to attached to her"Niall said almost upset at Liam's small gesture. We both look confused and have no idea what he is talking about.Niall takes note on that and cuts to the chase.

"Maybe this will ring a bell... Oh please don't call my parents if they find out I got in trouble again ...."  he said in a girly voice.

"What is he talking about " said Liam looking at me.

    "Oh Liam doesn't know about the no trouble thing" Niall laughs and I ball my fists even tighter.

"I was going to tell you....."I tell Liam with my eyes glued to the ground.

"My cousin said I could move in with her at the end of this year and my parents agreed as long as I stay out of trouble." I rush through.I look up at Liam expecting any kind of answer from him instead Niall opens him big mouth again.

"So you are trying to leave...huh. You think you can just leave...just like that and I'll let you."he rambles. Now I'm pissed.

"Why the hell do you care so much...huh why..  is it because you will have to find a new fucking punching bag when I'm gone. You will have to find a new poor soul to hate." I yell and he looks...hurt and that only makes my more pissed.

"You are so fucking pathetic..you look almost hurt when I say this as if you didn't know. I hate you ,I hate you with every fiber in my being I hate you so much" I rant as my lip shakes and my blood rises.

"Good" he says still standing there. Still hauting my dreams.

"Good,I'm so fucking glad you hate me because of all the damn time I spent trying to get you to love me, you finally show some kind of strong emotion....looks like the tin man has a fucking heart." he smirks.....but his eyes look so sad where have I seen thoughs eyes from.

--------------flashback-------------

The hallway crowded with people as normal as my best and only friend Jade pulls me though. A timid voice catches me attention. I turn around to see a boy so farmiliar but so new.Like I spent all day with him but I'm just now meeting him.

"Hi, D-Diamond" he studders. He looks like he has something to get off his chest.

"My names N-Ni...Ni" was all he could get out he was so nervous.

"Come on Diamond" Jade yells for me down the hall. I don't want to be rude and walk away so I just say goodbye."I'm sorry...Ni but I got to go" I joke with him and run down the hall.When I look back he is just staring at me with thoughs sad eyes. So...broken.

-----------flashback over-----------

"N-Ni....Niall"I look up to meet his eyes.

"That was you...