The Perfection of My Insanity

bruises

Diamond's Pov:

I drag myself out of bed in the morning and grown at the fact that its Monday.Not only is it my least favorite day of the week but the day that all the boys sleepover at Liam's house. That means they're all going to be together and they're all going to kick my ass together just fucking wonderful.

I walk out the front door with my hand still wrapped in gauze and my headphones in. I climb on the bus and walk down the aisle listening to Remembering Sunday by All Time Low. I suddenly trip over a foot sticking out of the aisle .I look up to see Niall smirking down at me what's the rest of the boys laughing. I take my headphones and stuff them back into my pocket .Today is not the day I'm sick and tired of this bastard pushing me around. I grab a fist full of his hair and drag him out of the seat he screams in pain and I smile and satisfaction when Zayn grabs me by the hood of my jacket and punches me in the face I kick him in the balls and he dropped to his knees .I feel the bus under me stop and I fall on my butt .Louis climbs on top of me and punches me in the face I smacked him and flips us over I punched him repeatedly when suddenly I'm lifted off my feet. I turn my head to see the bus driver with anger written all over his face he drags me down the aisle so that I now sit in the front . I look down the aisle to see all eyes on me.My eyes meet Liam's and I see sadness almost as if he feels bad that this just happened. Why would he feel bad he's been doing this to me for almost 3 years now and all nonchalantly this prick decides how to grow a fucking conscience. It's probably just pity that I'm seeing nothing more nothing less.

We all get off the bus and Liam still have that look in his eyes.The second was step foot in school the six of us are called into the office for a bus fight.

"You do realize you could all be suspended for such actions don't you" asked the principal don't have a feeling it was more of a rhetorical question. I set with my head down twirling my fingers. It's about time I change the gauze on my hand they look like they're starting to get old. The principal said some more stuff about responsibilities and about how if you have a problem with one of the students then you should talk to him about it I wasn't really paying attention but when he mention contacting parents my head shot up. My parents said that if I get in trouble one more time at school that they wouldn't allow me to move in with my cousin.

The principal just dismisses everyone but I stay in the principal's office for a little while longer.

"PLEASE YOU CAN'T CALL MY PARENTS IF THEY FIND OUT THAT I GOT IN TROUBLE ONE MORE TIME THEY WONT ALLOW ME TO...." I was cut off by the principal.

"Diamond ,Diamond calm down okay just take a deep breath it'll be okay and as for you I don't think you started this fight. I'm going to let you off the hook but one more time and I do mean one more time .I'll be forced to call your parents." said the principal. I don't think I've ever felt so relieved in my life now all I have to do stay out of trouble for the next couple of weeks and I'm home free. Thank God Niall doesn't know about this.

Niall's Pov:

That sneaky little bitch that's why she's been acting different for the past couple years. That's why she's been fighting back because she thinks she can just leave me oh no she can't leave me she won't leave me I'll make sure that she gets in trouble again. After school when we all go to Liam's house I'm going to make a plan and she won't leave me and I'll still be in control.

I walk away to my next class when I bump into Liam.

" Hey man where are you going class is this way." I ask with a confused face. Liam have been really distant lately almost as if he's avoiding me but I guess when we all go to his house I'll find out the explanation.

"Just got to use the toilet meet you in class mate." he states before walking off ...weird.

Liam's Pov:

I noticed Diamond walking into the bathroom after we all left the principal's office and I chase after her to see if she's okay. I poke my head into the girls bathroom and its empty. I tip toe in there when I see Diamond walking out of one of the stalls and my my eyes fall to her hand and I immediately feel guilty. I guess she noticed me staring and she put her hand behind your back.

"What are you doing in here. Let me guess you didn't get enough of me on the bus." she saids running her hand under the faucet. I see a long cut across her hand and a small one across your finger. She wraps her hand up in gauze with me still staring at her.

"D- Did we do that" I managed to say .She's leans her body up against the wall and just stares at me .Me on one side of the room and her on the other we sit there for a while.

"I asked you a question" I state a little in frustration.

"I asked you one too" she says in return. I honestly don't know what to say .If I tell the truth she won't believe it and if I tell a lie then she'll see right through it.

"I came to s-see if you were um okay i guess." I say nervously scratching the back of my neck. She lets out a laugh that's the first time I've heard her laugh like ever.

"Thanks for the good laugh haven't had that in a while now why don't you tell me why you're really here and not some bullshit lie" she says now suddenly becoming serious.

" That isn't a lie I came to see if you're alright after what happened on the bus and I came to say that I'm sorry. Sorry for the way that we've been treating you over the years and sorry for being such an asshole and a stupid follower. To be honest I don't even know why I'm bullying you.I just...."I was cut off by Diamond talking over me.

" Wait you don't even know why the fuck you been bullying me over these years yet you have. Then you come in here and say your fucking sorry off of some bullshit. What Liam what you suddenly have a fucking change of heart huh you suddenly grow a conscience. You beat the shit out of a girl for 3 years then apologize out the fucking blew. I don't need you're fucking pity .I don't want your dumb ass gilt and I don't have time to your sorry ass." she yells and I just stand there and take it I know it was wrong I know I shouldn't have done it no there's no excuse. I am a dumbass a stupid worthless follower who put his reputation above the safety and well being of another person .I sicken myself but I won't let her walk away I can't let her walk away. I grabbed her arm right before she about to walk out of the door .She stared into my eyes clearly pissed off from no redemption . I don't know what to say.I look down and see that my hand over one of her bruises and I pull up the sleeve of her short sleeve t shirt. She looks away as I do this action and I remember that she still hasn't answered my question.

"You still haven't answered my question .Did we do that to you?" I asked gently grabbing her hand and placing it in mine. For a second she looks fragile and innocent what she looked up at me she stiffened up like a rock.

"No.. "she states coldly and yanks her hand away. I place my hands down at my sides and look down at her she looks away and crosses her arms again.

" It wasn't a lie what I said before I really mean it and I know that it won't take my gilt away by you forgiving me that is if you even choose to forgive me.I know that by me just saying sorry won't make me and you okay but I want to try. Can't I?" I say praying that she will hear me out even though I know I don't deserve it. We stand there in silence for a little bit

I think she can hear my heart beating. I plead for anything to break this tension when suddenly she says.

"I believe you.......but I don't forgive you and I will never forget the thing you did to me......"I cut her off by hugging her but as soon as I did she flinched and I let go.I almost forgot about her bruises.I wonder how many she has.

"Umm D-Diamond if you don't mind me asking c-can I umm ,can I see umm see them ?" I manage to studder out.

"See what?"she says look at my confused.

"See your bruises" I say with a gulp.