The Perfection of My Insanity

Panic

As I ran out of the bathroom the school bell rang and I thanked the heavens.For once I welcomed the flooded hallways.I spotted Liam talking to Jade and ran up to them rapping my arms around Liam and he didn't hesitate to pull me in. I burried my face in his chest not caring if I got tears on his shirt or not.

My emotions were running wild and I felt so much anger.A flash of Liam's face popped into my head when I first woke up in his room. When he saved me from the park. I heard Jade ask what was wrong but she sounded so far away even through I know she is right next to me. The room was spinning and spinning.
sorry
sorry
sorry

I FUCKING HATE THAT WORD

'What happened' the question echoed in my brain.

"Z-Z-Zayn" was the only word I managed to get out. Liam let go of me and told Jade to make sure I was ok before he race up the hall.I felt so dizzy.Zayn had tried to 'apologize' and sound like something from the back of a note card.It wasn't real at all it wasn't like Liam's.

Jade started to drag me in the other direction but I had to know what Liam was going to do to Zayn. So I pulled away and head towards them.At first they were right in front of me and then they looked like they were a mild away.People in the hallway bumping into me and I must have lost Jade in the crowd. I can't breath. Liam grabbed Zayn and was yelling at him. They sound like they're in my head. I can barely stand up straight an I begin to wobble. What is happening to me. Everything is so fucking loud.I can't think staight. I try to call out for help but I can't even hear myself through the loud ringing in my ears. I drop to my knees and fall to the floor. When everything went black.

She woke up in a car and two men dressed in black suits pulled her out.Her arm restained in a staight jacket and feet chained together. They were taking her into a big building. Everything black and white. The girl looks up to read the sign and it says 'Chapmans House for the Mentaly Insane'.....I've seen this before. The two black suited men drang her in as she is unable to walk. They toss her into a room with white walls and no way out. She goes to the mirror and looks at herself ......it's me. A blood curdling scream rips through my lungs and the glass breaks.

I shot up opening my eye to see Liam with is head in his hands and Jade crying in the arms of some body I don't really remember. I look around to see the white walls and run. Everyone now notices that I'm up when they see me running out of the room. Liam grabs me by the waist tries to drag me back to the room with white walls. I fight and fight but he was stronger then me.

"Stop running Diamond it's just the nurses office it's ok, it's ok" he says calming me. I start to breath but he never lets me go and I look around the room. It's just the nurses office.

"I'm ok,I'm fine" I say taking a deep breath."What the hell happened to me"

"You had a panic attack" Jade said running over to me with teary eyes."Don't ever scare me like that again or I'll fucking kill you" she says squeezing the life out of me. I look behind her to see the grey eyed boy from earlier today.Jade must of noticed me staring because she pull herself away from me and looked over to him as well.

"Oh, Diamond this is Jay my big brother" she says and I'm shocked I really should have seen this coming.

"So you're the player with the anger mangement issues?" I asked swinging my long legs as I sit down on the nurses bed.

"Yup, and your the best friend with the attitude and apparently panic attacks as well" he smirks cocking his eye brow at me. I had chozen not to bring up the locker insident but sence pretty boy over here wants to play hard ball...

"So, what I would like to know is do you creep up behind everyone and block their locker on their first day.....Jay was it?" I tease pretending to pick my finger nails.

"First, let's not forget that you ran into me and was about to get into a fight with the capitan of the football team no less and Second, don't act like you don't remember my name babe alright" he says grinning at me.

Was that suppost to be a sex joke..Really.

"Well our football team is in serious trouble because I could have kicked that guy ass" I reply" And don't ever...call me 'babe' got it"

"I'll call you whatever I want!"

"Over my dead body!"

"Hey! hey! back to your corners now" Jade says over all of us.

"Hold on what's this about a fight now" Liam says.

Fuck

"Nothing it was just a guy that bumped me, nothing I could have handled" I answer glaring at Jay.

"Really, Diamond, your first day and you almost get into a fight" Liam says and he really sounds like a kill joy.

"You hear that word...almost. No harm done right" I say trying to convince him that everything is ok.

"What do you mean first day, did you move or something" Jay says jumping in the conversation. Everyone looks at me and I thank them for just throwing me under the fucking bus.

"Well,Jay if you really must know I was in a coma" I say waiting for his reaction...there always is one.

"Wow a coma, now a panic attack your pretty damn accident prone" he laughs but no one else in the room does.

"The coma wasn't an accident I shot myself in the head" I smile at him and the room goes dead silent."Not what you expected was it" I smirk and the look on his face is priceless.

Looks like I won this arguement huh!