The Perfection of My Insanity

strawberry vodka

The nurse told me that my panic attack was lead on my a series of strong emotion. Jade said that she would understand if I didn't want to go to the frat party anymore but I told her that I was still going.

I need this party to let out my 'series of strong emotions' I told my parents that I would be spending the weekend at Jade's house one friday and they never found out about my little episode during school so they won't try to hold it against me. Sence the party is on Friday night I can just go there and spend the weekend at Jade's and my parents don't have to know about the party.

Everthing works out fine.

My bags are already packed for this weekend.So now all I have to do is get through today and I'm home free.

I had to remind myself that their is no more walking to school and I'm forced to ride the bus.

The day goes by fine other than the fight between two freshmen and the constant looks on Jay's face. Like he was thinking about something and for my sake I hope it's not about my confession in the nurses office. God knows I don't need his pity.

Jade said that she would be here by 10, claiming that all the fun stuff happens close to midnight.

I was ready by 9:45, bag in hand and everything.I had to dress lazy so my parents wouldn't get suspicious but I put what I was wearing to the party in my bag

Moments pass and the sound of yelling came from down stairs. It was evident that my parents were fighting....again and I was not about to go down stairs and walk through that damage.

I had every intention on just wearing my party closes which consisted of leggings, black combat boots, and a black sleeveless top, and sneak out the front door but just as I was about to get dress in my party outfit Jade pulls up honking the horn extremely loud waking the whole neighborhood. The horn honking loud outside and me trying to throw my close back on inside. I decide to just make a run for it.

Opening to front door with nothing but unbuttoned pants and a purple T-shirt on. The December air hits me hard as I lock the door racing for the back seat of the dark red Dodge. In the proccess of running to the car my pants slide down to my tights revealing my purple boy shorts. At the time I was more worried about my parents stroming outside any seconds. That would just kill me.

"Thanks for the show I really need that" says Jay turning his head to the back seat.

"Oh,god" I spit in a distastfull tone.I glare at Jade sitting in the passangers seat.

"Well what did you excpect, me having my licence already, me birthday's not that early" she shrugs and turns back to face the front.

"Just hoping is all" I say as the car starts and Jay speeds down the street.

"We're not making any stops and the rides about 25 five minutes" says Jay's consentrating on the road.

"Wait, I thought we were stopping by your house so I could change" I speak from the back seat.

"Nope, just change in the car it's nothing I haven't seen before" he chuckles and adjusted the review mirror. I groan loud enough that he can hear and start to change. Aside from the bumping, slidding,and constant feel of being watched,getting dressed was easy.

As I was pulling one my boots I heard music thumbing.I look up to see a hige house completely trashed with drunken teens on the lawn and punk on the stairs.

"I see the fun has already begun" Jade giggled before clicking her seat belt and climbing out of the car. Jay looks like he was trying to tell her something before she left but it was too late. I step out of the car making sure I don't step in any throw up. I look up at the house and other than the spray paint ,toilet paper ,and what I hope is mud.It's pretty nice.

"First,party huh" Jay asked sliding next to me taking in the view.

"Yeah" I reply shortly," Now I need a good time" I whisper to myself walking into the huge house. I was greeted by sweaty ,drunken bodies doing something that they call dancing.I know dancing and that shit's not dancing. A couple guys glance at me but I don't pay them any mind. I head towards the kitchen where I asume is where the good stuff is. I see a couple making out in the corner but they arn't bothering me so why bother them.

All I see is beer and I fucking hate beer.I tried it once and wanted to puke it back up.

"Looking for something" a voice says from behind me and I almost piss my pants,"You look a little young to be at a frat party" he questioned. He was tall with dark hair and blue eyes and you could tell he worked out. He might have been twenty or younger.

"You one of Jades friends" he asked and I knoded my head 'yes'.

"Well in that case have a seat and have a drink" he laughed and he had perfect teeth. I glance around to see that all the chairs were gone so I just sat on the counter top. The guy looked at me as if asking a question when I finally got it.

I searched my mind for a drink that didn't make me want to throw up and I finally found one.

"Do you have strawberry vodka?" I asked and he knodded. I watched him carefully as he grabbed a red solo cup out of a clear bag and poured the drink into it. I surely didn't want to end up like the hangover and have somebody drug me. He handed me the cup and I took a sip welcoming the sting as it ran down.

"So what's your name,Hun" The guy asked as he cracked open a beer bottle.How do people drink that shit.

"Diamond,and your name?" I reply taking another sip.I don't want to get drunk right away or have a hangover.

"Ryan" he answers taking a swig of his beer.

"So, your Jades cousin, huh" I grin at him.

"Yup"he smiles.

"So it must have been a pretty big favor for you to let her come here"

"Yeah, she some how convinced these guys not to kick my ass while I was hammered and believe me I probably deserved the ass beating" he says holding up his beer bottle and slowly exiting the kitchen.

I flinch at the thought of him drunk and head towards the dance floor when my cup was snatched out of my hand.

"Hey!!" I yell out and look for the thief when I meet Jay's eyes glaring down at me.

"You're too fucking young to drink" he says and he looks high and smells like it too.

"Last time I checked you're too young to smoke and weed wasn't legal" I spit taking back my strawberry vodka and taking a sip.

"Well I'm the one driving so I make the damn rules" he says trying to take my cup again but I move it away.

"Why don't you pull that butt plug out of your ass and relax,God, its not like I'm at a keg stand" I say with my lips pressed againt the cup again.