The Perfection of My Insanity

Noah's gay

Jason's POV:

I couldn't sleep.

Not that I get much sleep on a normal night, but this was different. I think it's because of her. I wonder if she's sleeping or thinks about me. I want her to think about me.

I want her to think about anything else than the night at the frat house. I remember her telling me that she's been through more than me or something like that. A part of me wishes that she was just saying that to sound cool.I hope she was saying that.

A part over me want to hold her and another wants to scare her away, and another wants to push her up against a wall and...well you get the gist.

But she's a virgin so I don't think I should do that and fuck up that whole pure thing she's got going on.
You saw the way she danced with Noah, is she really that innocent.

Well I brought Amber, no, Amy as a date so...
So what?!? you're not dating

Which means I can't be mad at her.

But I am.

She's mine and I swear to god if Noah put is god damn lips on her I'll rip is fucking head off. That son of a bitch has been a pain in my ass ever since we were kids anyway. The only close relative that I can actually stand to be around is Ryan and that's only because I look up to him like a brother.

Those Jackasses at the fat house were arrested not long after we left. But not even the thought that those assholes will soon be somebody's buttbitch can make me less pissed off. The cocaine and several past charges of theft, assault and god knows what else was enough to but them away. We decide not to involve Diamond, she has enough problems to deal with. One of which is trying to shoot herself in the head. I'm personally going to make sure that shit doesn't happen again.

I remember something my therapist said in England.(That's a first.) Of course  it took a while to get past that god damn accent.

Anyway, she said something about the sun rise or some shit. No, I got it, she said looking up at a sun rise can have a great impact on some people and that when I get the time I should try it. And of course I thought it was utter horse shit and never quite 'had the time' but who knows? Maybe the shit will work on her and Diamond's fucked up way of thinking.

To my surprise sweeping off the snow on the roof outside my window was a lot easier then waking up Diamond.(That's cause you did a half asses job) I thought it was cute the way her noise twitched when I moved away here hair. But I also found it fuckimng annoying when I was trying to help her from busting her ass and she pushed my hands away like I was trying to make a damn move on her. You thought about it. But I didn't!!

Like she's so innocent any fucking way. Like I haven't grabbed her fucking waist before. I walk past and head up the stairs. This is way I don't fuck with virgins.

!!Damn it!!

I mentally take back the previous statement about Diamond being just some virgin. If you keep getting angry like this they will send your ass right back to England. I sigh and quickly calm down. I shouldn't have been angry in the first place.