Help Me Touch You || Vkook ff

Chapter 115

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Jungkook discovered something. He had thought before that when all three of them get involved with one another and they become a semi-well functioning system the stress of waiting to see who will be fronting would be gone. He had assumed that there would be order, that somewhat of an arrangement would be put in place or at the very least a decision would be made as to who's coming out next and he'd be made aware. He had assumed he'd be spared from the anticipation and suspense he'd so often been experiencing. But here he was, at the edge of his seat, waiting once more as the other man sat unmoving with his eyes downcast after Taetae declared he was leaving.

"Taehyung?" – He asked softly.

The man shook his head and uttered in a quiet voice – "No... but he's still here."

"V? Are you okay?" – Jungkook questioned carefully as if afraid that any sudden noises and movements would scare the man away.

"No. I can't say I am."

V looked sad and broken in a way Jungkook wasn't sure he'd ever seen before.

"Do you need a hug?" – Jungkook offered but V was quick to decline, his eyes wide.

"No! Um... No. Taehyung is here. I... He doesn't like being touched and I don't want to disappoint him too."

"Oh V... I'm sure he appreciates that you're taking his feelings into consideration, but I'm more than sure you wouldn't be disappointing him with a hug. You haven't let down Taetae either; he's just a little hurt right now."

"Yes I have." – V mumbles.

"It seems like he's not the one who's disappointed in you. It looks to me that you are."

"That one you're right about."

"V... We all make mistakes. We went through some things with each other as well in the past. You remember right? At that time I was very sure I'd never be seeing you again. I had no plans of forgiving you. But we worked through them. Here we are together and you guys are the most important people in the world to me. If we could get past that, you three will definitely get over this. I have no doubts about that. You might not see it right now because you're scared and feeling vulnerable but I promise, once you're on the other side of this thing, your bond is going to be stronger. Give the kid a little time and watch him come around. Taetae's heart is the biggest one out there... you know this."

"Maybe... I guess we'll see."

"Hey. The V I know doesn't sit around feeling sorry for himself." – Jungkook blurted out, forcing V out of his sorry state.

"I'm not feeling sorry for myself Jungkook! I'm upset! There's a difference!" – V retorted.

"Well then we do something V. When I was in trouble and breaking down, you did something. That's what you do. You act. Act now."

"What do you want me to do Jungkook? He ran off. He doesn't want to talk to me... at least not now. So there's nothing I can do but wait. You just said so yourself. Didn't you just tell me to give him time?" – V snapped.

"Yes I did. But is this what you're going to be doing in the mean time? Moping around?" – Jungkook pushed some more.

"What the hell else can I do?"

V was getting agitated. Jungkook knew this. But he'd prefer the man he loves be driven to do something, anything other than brooding and sulking.

"How about we have all the difficult conversations all at once? Hm? Once everything is out in the open I think you'll feel much better."

V looked at Jungkook, very obviously puzzled.

"I'm not sure I understand what you're trying to tell me."

"You said Taehyung is here, yes?"

V still couldn't make out exactly what he was meant to do.

"Yes? And?"

Jungkook didn't respond, not verbally anyway. He just kept looking at V, looking into his eyes as if trying to communicate though his gaze.

And it worked.

"Oh. Oooh. Are you sure that's a good idea?"

"I know that it's better to get all the difficult things done at once. We're already here. I think when people are in a good place they avoid touchy subjects. Look... we almost lost each other and you fixed that. Then Taetae was unreachable and we fixed that. Taetae is a little upset and needs some time, we're working on that one. How about we take care of this too? And when all is said and done, we'll all be on the same page. I can't imagine anything more freeing for all parties involved."

V sighed and rubbed his face in distress.

"I just can't handle another one going silent on me. I know it might not make sense to you, but during these couple of weeks... I just... I can't handle losing another one... I can't take complete silence..."

"Hey, hey... You don't need to explain. It doesn't have to make sense to me. But, and I don't say this to influence your decision, I think you should have some faith in him. He's come a long way... you both have."

"V, you know I can tell this is about me, right? And to be honest, you two are starting to freak me out a little. What is it that I should know that's so difficult to discuss?"

"Well. There goes my decision." – V mumbles.

"What? What do you mean?" – Questions Jungkook.

"I mean I no longer have a choice, because Taehyung figured out there's something I have to tell him and he might be slightly worried about it."

"Oh." - Jungkook says with a sheepish look no his face.

"Yea. Oh." - V responds sarcastically. Jungkook ignores it and keeps going, no less seriously than he was a few seconds ago.

"V, that doesn't take away your choice. I know Taehyung and I know that if you tell him you need some time before you can talk about it, he'll respect it."

"He really thinks a bit too highly of me."

V snorts trying to stifle a laugh.

"Yea, he tends to do that about me too." – V responds to Taehyung.

"What? What's funny? What's he saying?" – Jungkook asked, looking a bit bemused.

"Nothing important..." 

"I hope you won't overestimate my patience as well."

"Nah... I wouldn't do that to you."

V stared at nothing for a while as he seemed to drift off into his thoughts and then he clapped his hands once with conviction as though he came to conclusion.

"Alright. Let's do this."