Smoke Signals

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⚠️ EATING DISORDER ⚠️

I was lying down on the couch, my head on JJ's stomach as she played with my hair. I was a bit lightheaded and felt sick, but I didn't want to tell her. "Come on angel, let's go to bed, it's getting late." I groaned and shifted a bit. "I can carry you."

"I don't feel good." I whispered.

"What?"

"I dont...I don't feel good."

"Are you gonna throw up?"

"No." I mumbled, squeezing my eyes shut as I tried not to feel dizzy.

"What's wrong."

"I'm dizzy...and lightheaded."

"Did you drink anything?" I nodded. "Did you eat?" I didn't answer. "Angel, you need to eat."

"Can we not do this now?"

"Darling-"

"Jayje...Jayje not now."

"Ok. Want me to get you some food?" I shook my head. "Come on honey."

"I don't want it." I was starting to feel incredibly weak even though I wasn't doing anything. "I'm gonna try to get up."

"No angel, I don't think that's a good idea." I stood up and immediately fell down.

"I'm ok, don't worry." I whispered. She rolled down off the couch next to me.

"I'm going to pick you up and take you to bed, ok? I'm going to get you some food and some water then we're going to go to bed." I nodded, too out of it to respond.

Next thing I knew I was lying down in bed, cool water running down my throat. JJ rubbed my thigh as I took a bite of my yogurt bowl. "You like it?" She asked. I nodded. "I put honey in it." I smiled up at her. "I know you love honey." She kissed the top of my head.

Once I was a little over halfway done with it I handed it to JJ. "You can finish it."

"You sure?" I nodded and cuddled into her side, waiting for her to finish it. "Ok." She dove into it and I tangled our legs together, waiting for her to finish before I put my arms around her. "Are you feeling better?" She asked me when she finished.

"A bit. Not lightheaded as much."

"Good." She put her arm around my shoulders and pulled me into her, kissing the top of my head.

"Did you get yogurt in my hair?"

"No. I promise." She said.

"Ok." I sighed, feeling myself drift off to sleep. "So I was thinking we could go to the movies tomorrow? There's a new movie with Margot Robbie that looks good."

"Sure."

"Are you sure sure or are you saying sure because you're tired?"

"I don't know. Ask me in the morning." I nuzzled my face into her neck and fell asleep.

"Wake up!" I jolted awake when I heard JJ's exclamation.

"What time is it?"

"7:30."

"7:30 on a Saturday? JJ...please...sleep."

"You rolled away from me. I want cuddles."

"I've never seen you being this needy." I turned around and she immediately engulfed me in a bear hug.

"There's a first and last time for everything."

"Last time?"

"I like it better when you're the needy one. It suits you better." I just hummed in response. "You ok?"

"You woke me up at 7:30 in the morning on a Saturday. What do you think?" I grumbled.

"You're grumpy." She squeezed me even tighter if that was possible.

"You're comfortable." I hummed and rested my forehead against her chest, wanting to fall back asleep.

I was on the verge of falling back asleep but JJ started kissing the top of my head and playing with my hair. "Stop." I mumbled.

"I can't help it. You're cute." I tilted my head up to look at her and she started kissing all over my face before kissing my lips. I smiled into the kiss and then cuddled closer to her.

"Sleep. Rest. Cuddles." I mumbled.

"What's rest without kisses?"

"Who ever said that? Ever?"

"Me."

"Ok. Just kiss my forehead. I want to sleep and I can't do that if we're making out."

"You're no fun." She whined, kissing my forehead. I hummed and immediately started feeling drowsy again, her kiss making me feel safe and comfortable. "You look cute." She whispered, kissing my forehead again.

"Mhm." I had no time to say anything else before I fell asleep.