Smoke Signals

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I lied down on my stomach on our bed, facing the window as JJ got dressed. She had to go out to the store since we had run out of food. "You still tired angel?" She asked with a soft laugh.

"My brain isn't working." I groaned and rolled onto my back.

"Was last night too much for you?" She asked with a smirk.

"Was six rounds really necessary?"

"I wasn't the one who was begging." I sat up and looked at her with puppy eyes. "What?"

"I don't want you to leave."

"We need to get food honey."

"We can just order in." I pleaded, making grabby hands at her, needing cuddles.

"We've been spending too much money lately."

"We have a paid vacation. Also, it's not like we have to eat right this second. We can just pay for someone to bring the groceries to us. It'll only be like $15 more expensive, we can afford that." I desperately tried to come up with solutions to make her stay.

"You can just tell me you want to cuddle and I would stay."

"I want to cuddle." I pouted and she climbed onto the bed in front of me. She took my hands in hers. "Last time I checked, this is not cuddling."

"Are you ok?" She asked as she rested her forehead against mine.

"I'm fine. Just cuddles. Please?" She smiled and put her arms around me, turning over so I was on top of her. I rested my head on her chest and stared at the wall again, feeling a bit better now that she was holding me.

"I pride myself in my ability to tell when people are lying. Especially people I know well."

"There's not always something to talk about Jayje." I told her. "Sometimes...like the past three months and like...sometimes it feels like forever I've just felt terrible, so I really don't know what you want me to say because there's nothing to talk about." She stayed quiet for a minute.

"I know that baby." I rolled off of her and put my hands over my face. "What is it?"

"I keep being mean to you. I don't want to be mean to you. You don't deserve it." She took her hands off of my face and kissed me, cupping my face in her hands in the process. She slid her tongue into my mouth and I moaned into it involuntarily. She smiled and got on top of me. It felt really nice to be kissing her like this again. We had done this three times a day at the beginning of our relationship but it felt so different now, we weren't trying to learn each others body we just wanted to share our love in the kiss.

She started kissing down my neck, grabbing my jaw gently to tilt my head. "Jayje."

"Hm?" She hummed against my skin.

"Lips please." She smiled and connected our lips, sliding her tongue in again with ease.

She tugged on my bottom lip when she pulled away and then rested her forehead against mine. I smiled and pecked her lips before putting my arms around her. She flipped us over so I was on top and cuddling into her. Her hand rested on my shoulder and caressed it. "This is a lot better than groceries." I told her.

"It really is." She smiled and kissed my forehead. "But you still need to eat."

"I know that." I whispered, draping my arm over her waist and pulling her into me more. "Just hire someone to get the groceries." She pulled the covers up over me, up to my shoulders. I felt myself start to relax as I listened to her heartbeat. "I don't want you to go." I squeezed her shirt in my hand and closed my eyes.

"Ok angel, I won't go."

"Thank you." I let out a sigh of relief. I didn't even know why I wanted her to stay so badly.

"Wanna take a nap? You seem tired." I nodded. "Ok, get some rest my love. I'll be here when you wake up." My hand releases its grip on her shirt and I fell into a peaceful sleep.