|POLARITY| Gojo Satoru x Reader

17.

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Y/n's POV

It's been almost a year since the day I decided to leave. The thought of going back to that classroom, his blue eyes looking at mine with the same fear I saw that day, made a lump get stuck on my throat. That night I used the favor the higher ups granted me for our sake. I get to avoid the feeling of guilt I get from chaining him down, from making him face the same reality I live in.

He gets to pretend he never met me. 

The elders set me up in a small house near Tokyo, just a few train stations away. The closest I have ever had to freedom. I do need to go back every couple of weeks to report on the missions I am assigned to. It's always the same: curses, runaway sorcerers. Today, I'm boarding the train to do exactly that. It doesn't take long to arrive at my stop. I step off the train to find Yaga sitting on a bench near the stairs, smoking a cigar. I walk closer until I'm standing right in front of him; he doesn't even look me in the eye when he folds the newspaper he was reading, putting it down next to him.

"Did everything go smoothly?" He asks, taking the reports from my hands.

"Everything went fine," I sit next to him.

"Good." He puts his cigar out. "We need you to act as a guard today. Tengen will merge with his new vessel, I want you to protect his quarters. Gojo is dealing with the vessel," he says, swishing through the report.

I feel the rope of the binding vow tighten as it records the command. Hearing his name after so long makes my stomach turn. I fidget with my hand to try to ease myself.

"What?" I ask, hoping I do not have to meet him, the thought of seeing him after so long making a whirlpool of anxiety in my mind.

He sighs exasperated with the fact he has to say more words to me. "Gojo and Suguru bring the vessel; you'll take her from them and deliver it to Tengen. We cannot trust them as we trust you. Your job is to protect the ritual; don't let anything interrupt him." He groans putting his papers in his briefcase. "We should go; they are arriving at the school right now."

Gojo Satoru. 

I can feel my mind begin to wander as I think of him. How will he react to seeing me after so long? He is always so unpredictable, going from one emotion to the next in seconds. I hop on to Yaga's car feeling a weird bubbling sensation in my stomach.

Is it because I'm thinking of him?

I can't help but gulp as I begin to hear my heartbeat in my ears. I don't feel sick, my hand goes to my chest and my stomach drops as I notice it.

My heart isn't going that fast... Am I not hearing my heart?

I take a deep breath in but feel like it isn't enough as my body begins to feel hot. Something is wrong, I can a ominous feeling settle deep in my bones.

A warning.

What is wrong with me?

Yaga's phone rings and the sound echoes in my head as I start to feel detached from my surroundings. "What?! Is the vessel alive?" The car screeches as he breaks; his voice shell-shocked.

"Father." I call for him.

"Suguru is taking her to Tengen? What about Gojo?" Yaga's voice starts sounding far away from me. Like somehow my body was drifting far away "How could a sorcerer breach the veil?"

I am in danger.

I gasp as I feel a stinging sensation on my stomach, almost like I've been impaled.

I look down to find a small circle of liquid under my sternum, the size growing. My hand reaches for it, and when I turn it, my breath hitches, seeing my fingers smeared with blood. "Father..." I call for him again, but my voice doesn't carry volume.

My eyes come up and find no explanation, no cursed energy..

I can't help but force air into my lungs. I can't even see the wound through the tears that form in my eyes. It feels hot. So hot it doesn't let me think. I'm scared.

What the fuck is happening to me?

"Y/n!" Yaga looks at my blooded hand and quickly looks around us. "Shit... hold on." I can't even focus on what he is saying as I try my best to heal the wound being torn into me; My body getting pulled into the seat as he accelerates. I try to find it, to find what is hurting me, but I can't find a possible source. I heal myself with my technique, but multiple wounds start appearing around my body. There's blood pouring out of me. "What the fuck is going on y/n!" The car races through the streets towards the school as blood covers my hands.

I am getting nauseous.

"Father" I mumble. "Help..." Please help me.

I need to get it together.

Fuck, there's too much blood.

I immediately focus on using my reversed curse technique to heal them, but I am left breathless as more wounds spawn. I feel pressure and heat so strong it almost feels acidic as my skin tears open, a stinging overwhelming sensation. Fear clouds my judgment as I start to desperately gasp for air. I do my best to heal myself, but wounds keep appearing.

"Father..." My hands are shaking so it's hard to apply pressure to the wounds, the lump in my throat making it hard to breathe.

"Shoko?" Yaga speaks on the phone "Something is wrong with Y/n! She is bleeding out!" I try to hear what he says, but as more time passes by, his words sound more like noises than something coherent to me. My body feels lighter; I can feel my blood soaked clothes stick to my skin.

It's cold.

"Y/n, focus! At this pace, you'll bleed out!" Shoko's voice brings me back; I didn't even realize how I got to her ER. She is talking, but I feel like I am already dead when a stinging sensation goes from my neck down to my stomach. I scream as I use the energy I have left to not bleed out.

I can hear Yaga and Shoko screaming, but I can't tell what they are saying.

I'm scared.

I can feel tears forming in my eyes as I heal myself back together; the feeling of being completely drained out consumes my thoughts. I can't hear nor see as I focus every last bit of me on not dying.

Am I scared of dying? My mind begins to drift off as the thought settles. Am I scared of death, or is it the fear I'll never get to experience what I haven't lived?

I feel my mind go dark as another stinging sensation settles over my eye.

The sound of a ticking clock makes my mind come back, the sound of each chime reeling me in. A sudden wave of rapture consumes me, filling me with electricity from head to toe. There is light, a light so blinding yet so pure; invading my senses before I open my eyes.

It's beautiful.

Clouds painted with golden light, a breeze taking away the noise I wasn't aware had surrounded me my whole life, water droplets swaddled by a leaf. 

Everything everywhere surrounding me.

"Throughout Heaven and Earth, I alone am the honored one." I recite as the words cloud my brain, repeating themselves in my brain over and over like a mantra.

Omniscient POV

Nature is the greatest mystery out there, the possibility of fate existing thin, but not impossible. Ying and Yang wasn't a coincidence but a necessity, a cycle. Nature exists because it ensures balance and balance exists so nature can thrive. The existence of them indicated unprecedented evil. They are fated to exist at the same time; one cannot continue without the other since they alone will face the responsibility of keeping equilibrium on earth.

The prophecy established the moment Gojo faced death; their souls now bound, immortality as long as one of them remains, Gojo's soul intertwined on Y/n's; granting him reverse cursed technique by nature, her absorbing his wounds as a price.