|POLARITY| Gojo Satoru x Reader

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Y/n's POV

I'm supposed to be mad at him. He lied to me, he hid that I am fated to die... He is standing so close and I already backed into the wall, I can't set any more distance between us, I feel like I lost the ground I had to stand on; I have been questioning my sanity when it comes to him for a long time. Like right now, I wanted to scream at him seconds ago, but now all I can think about is the heat that emanates from his skin.

Why didn't he tell me before?

"You are really going to stand here and pretend you don't know why?!" His words make my mind go silent. This is when I'm supposed to stop him, to push him away. But his breathing getting mixed with mine is all I can focus on. I don't dare to look up as I watch his chest rise and fall. His hand moves my chin, forcing me to look up to his blue eyes, it's not helping... it's adding to the warmth that is engulfing me. "You are driving me insane..." I don't think I can push him away, not that I want to either. Not when he is already this close. My eyes fall onto his lips. I don't move, unable to hold any resistance as he breaks the distance between us, his lips are on mine...

I don't want him to stop.

I never knew a kiss could feel like drowning. Like nothing is enough. His hand goes around my waist, and I hate how good it feels when he presses himself against me. It makes me feel like he did nothing wrong. His kiss is demanding, hungry. I don't know in what moment my hands went to his hair, but I'm holding on to him as he deepens the kiss, fighting the need to pull on it.

I feel like I'm melting.

I didn't realize I was starving for him until now.

I feel a shiver go up my back as his hands go to the back of my legs, picking me up from the ground. My legs instinctively go around his waist as I try to catch my breath. I open my eyes and realize it was a mistake — his flushed look, the way his lips seem reddened, plump. Our breathing rapid as his forehead leans against mine. "You know why," he speaks with a husky voice.

I can feel my heart skip a beat. Maybe I know why. I saw it, every single life we have had the proof that I cannot deny him.

I can't even be mad at him. I lean against him as I hide my face in the nook of his neck. I feel like my face is heating up as I do my best to not contain what I'm thinking. I want to hear him say it. "Why..." I murmur against his neck and feel proud at the way he gets goosebumps.

I can't help but squeal as he brings me higher onto his waist as he walks with me as if I weigh nothing at all, holding me like I'm a belonging.

"You are toying with me." He complains as he walks down to the kitchen setting me down on the counter. He looks up at me as he sets himself between my legs. "It's not funny, y/n. You really..." he stops talking as he scans my face. "You... you became everything."

I think he might be right. Since I met him, since we were younger, he was everything. The reason I was kept alive, now the reason why I can live. The way his eyes look at me with this soft sparkle is making me feel like this is how we are supposed to be. My hand comes up to his cheek, his eyes look almost pained as he leans to my touch.

I lean closer to him, stopping just before our lips touch. "I'm not toying with you." I whisper.

He closes the distance between us, his lips feel so soft as they place soft kisses on mine. "That's the part you answer, you are toying with me..." I feel his hand settle on my cheek, his thumb running a line down my lips, making me part them. His chuckle makes me open my eyes. "I didn't imagine you so compliant."

"Im the one toying with others?" I get lost in his eyes as his hand trails down my neck. His grin making me feel things I didn't know I could feel.

"Y/n... You didn't answer me" His eyes move around my eyes, my lips.

I didn't brush it off, Satoru. I want you to say it, what has been lingering around us but neither of us has acknowledged.

"Answer what?" I ask completely aware that I'm holding my breath.

"Maybe I wasn't clear enough." His grin dies down making my heart flutter, his hand falls to mine. "When I say you became everything, I mean that... you are all that is worth living for." I can feel my blood running hotter. His words skipped my brain and got engraved in my heart. "Y/n, I love you, I have for a while now."

I don't know if it hurts, it almost does, in the most beautiful way.

His eyes are softer than I have ever seen them. "Can I love you?" His voice, the softness in which it reaches me.

I love him.

"Yes..." I don't stop myself. This might kill me, it might already have killed me before, but there is not a single fiber in my being that wants to part ways with him, this moment. I love him and he loves me and I don't think anything matters as much as this. Never in my past lives did I die in regret, I died looking for him.

So maybe I'm the biggest fool in the world.

I will do everything in my power to have one life. Even if it's only this one.

"Please do... Satoru." I can finally do as I wish, my arms come up, passing behind his neck as I hug him.

I will live.

Never before did I had the opportunity to see the past. Does god expect me to sit still, await for my death? I've had enough; I deserve peace, if I have to go against god, against fate, the king of curses, so be it.

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This chapter took me so long, I'm sorry, but nothing I wrote was gojoing properly so I rewrote it a bunch.

I hope I did a good love confession, updates will be slower cause the ending I have planned is challenging to say the least. Good thing spring break is coming closer, I'll probably finish it by then.

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