|POLARITY| Gojo Satoru x Reader

11.

Y/n POV

"Father?" I say as I'm far enough from Gojo for him to hear.

"Y/n did he forgive you?" He says amused.

"Was that necessary, to make me vow to him?" I hate to give him the satisfaction of sounding irritated.

"You'll get him back Y/n. I spoke to the elders about your little feats, that we have confirmed that his limitless doesn't stop you, how you managed to escape from the suppression chamber in 3 days. You have no idea how much they praised me for not killing you when you were little. They even told me you can ask them for a gift; you made the old geezers happy." He pauses for a couple of seconds, probably taking a puff from his cigar. "We had a brief chat and I guess this opportunity is perfect. Today at Gojo's mission, you will commence phase 2. We will be adding a couple of extra curses in there, so make sure you show off." 

My eyes go from the window to Gojo as I get my new order; he stares at me, analyzing me like I'm a freak. He is easy to read, he has an almost concerned look, probably for the wrong reasons. He really is clueless. I turn around, wanting to evade his blue eyes.

"Understood," I reply.

"Make him understand he should watch his steps, touch him. Let him know whose side you are on as well. Make it flashy" I can hear him grinning on the other side of the line.

"What if he tries to fight me?" I ask knowing it is a possibility. I could die today.

"Don't kill him. He is of good use for us after all. In case you fight him and he is stronger than you, fall back." Yaga cuts the call as I still face the wall, holding the phone to my ear.

Part of me thought I would never leave phase 1, keeping my training and abilities a secret. But today, phase 2 begins, letting my powers be known by the Jujutsu society, letting Gojo know he isn't untouchable, and most importantly, making people know the elders, the elite sorcerers, own the strongest sorcerer.

I take a deep breath as I gather myself still staring at the wall. I can't help but have a bad aftertaste from the call. Until now, I was able to pretend i was someone else, a young girl with no cares in the world, living a quiet life, going to school, decorating my dorm, listening to my classes with no one caring about my existence. Things will change tonight. I will become isolated, even more than what I'm used to. They will see a sorcerer when i walk by; a strong one, someone they should fear, someone they cannot trust. Every single sorcerer knowing I'm nothing but a pawn. 

I let the phone down from my ear, the screen lights up with his wallpaper. A picture of him with his friends, smiling so happily. I feel a pang of pain, envy?  If things were different, would I have been in this picture too? Could I have had a chance of being free? I wonder if i would have attended this school if father didnt take me from my family. I walk back to Gojo and Suguru and feel a bit of guilt as they share glances.

"I don't want to go." I really don't want to admit to the world what I am.

"So he said yes." Gojo's smile makes my guts turn inside out. 

Dont smile like that.

"When are we leaving?" I say readjusting the bag on my shoulder.

"I texted the driver; he is outside waiting for us." Suguru stands up and walks to Shoko, probably to let her know we are leaving. My eyes get lost in their interaction the way Shoko glances at me with her eyebrows furrowed while discussing with Suguru.

The bag on my shoulder gets lighter as Gojo takes it and puts it on his. "You'll be fine." I look at him and feel my breath getting stuck in my chest as his blue eyes stare at mine. "I promise I won't let the curses do anything to you, so stop looking like that."

My heart throbs because there is no mischievous tone in his voice; he is being sincere. I blink a couple of times, looking away.

"You promise I'll go back to my dorm tonight?" I'm a coward.

"I promise" he says looking confused.

The silence between us feels restless.

"I promise too." It escapes my mouth before I can stop it. I want him to know I have no intention, no wish to cause harm, but I should not say that. The whole point of going is to intimidate him, so why am I acting like this? I look at him as his eyebrow raises, confused. He opens his mouth but gets interrupted by Suguru.

"Let's go! Let's make it there as early as we can!" Suguru yells, walking out with Shoko.

I walk towards them before Satoru can ask any questions. Why am I so stupid? I shouldn't feel soft now; maybe it's because I'm tired from the cube.

As we walk to the car, Shoko and Suguru talk about the mission. Shoko insists I should stay back but drops it after she notices no one will change their minds. I walk silently as Gojo does too, his sixth on me. I feel small. We reach the car and I get in first, trying to avoid Gojo who was behind all the others.

"I want the back," Gojo cuts in before Shoko. He sits in the middle seat. I try to pretend not to notice the glances he steals as I turn to face the window.

I can feel his shoulder near mine and feel weirdly nervous.

"Shotgun," Shoko says. Suguru sighs, hopping in after Gojo.

"Excited for the mission, Y/n?" Suguru asks with a smile.

I turn to look at him. I can't act all scared right now. If I'm going to reveal my abilities, they'll just get more anxious if I do that, maybe even try to gang up on me.

"I've been wanting to practice my technique." They all freeze and turn to me, looking at me like I grew horns. "What?" 

"You have a technique?" Shoko sounds shocked.

Satoru and Suguru exchange glances before staring at me intensely again. I nod.

"I do; that's why Yaga adopted me," I say, looking out the window. The binding vow feels looser as reveal more. I can feel their stares wanting more context, but I decide that this is enough for now. Thankfully, they stay quiet, as the car drives through the city my eyes turn heavier. I should rest.