Secret Serenade

Chapter 24

Evian

He's mad. So mad. Bakit ba siya nagagalit? And gosh, he's being violent again. What does he mean he will kill every guy my eyes will laid on? Is he crazy?

Our eyes are still locked on each other. He's mad and I'm confused. I know what he said. He's threatening me. Gaya nalang ng palagi niyang ginagawa simula palang. He doesn't want me to replace him. Ano siya, sinuswerte? Hindi siya ang masusunod sa buhay ko!

I pushed him. Nagpadala naman siya sa tulak ko at napaupo sa kama. Mabilis akong tumayo bago niya pa ako ma-corner ulit.

"You're... you're crazy!" I don't know what to say!

"Yeah, right," ngumisi siya.

"You can't just say that! You know that I hate it when you get violent!"

Tumayo siya at mabilis naman akong umatras bago niya pa ako malapitan. Napatigil siya at tinaasan ako ng kilay, bahagyang nagtaka sa action ko pero ngumisi lang siya. Argh, takot ako na kapag nalapitan niya ulit ako ay baka kung anong gawin niya.

"If you don't want me to get violent then fucking behave, Evian. Ikaw lang naman 'tong matigas ang ulo at sobrang stubborn," muli siyang umupo sa dulo ng kama. "I'm just protecting you..."

"Well, I don't need your protection! I can handle myself just fine, thank you very much!" Huli kong sinabi bago dali-daling lumabas ng kwarto. Nakaka-suffocate ang tension! Argh, I hate him so much!

I think him, being protective kuno, is getting hand out of hand. Imagine, I can't even talk to a guy consistently kasi pinagbabawalan niya ako at laging sinasabi na they were not good enough for me. I know naman na mataas ang worth ko pero grabehan naman ata na lahat nalang ng nakakausap ko ay ayaw niya. Minsan nga ay naiisip kong baka nagseselos lang siya kaya niya ginagawa 'yon but that's impossible. Our relationship is nothing like that.

I know our relationship somehow changed but that's it. We kissed, we fucked, we cuddled, but that's it. Ayokong bigyan ng special meaning lahat ng mga actions ni Aji dahil alam kong masasaktan lang ako sa huli. Whenever I have this emotional yet bitter feeling, I always ignore and deny it. Kahit na we grew up together, I feel like I still don't know him. Alam kong malala ang personality niya pero ano pa bang alam ko tungkol sa kanya? And him, on the other hand, I feel like he knows me better than I do. And I hate it.

He's really bad for my system. And my life.

Baka kapag pinagpatuloy ko pa kung anong relationship ang meron kami, baka mapahamak pa ako, lalong lalo na ang puso ko. Kaya maybe it's better to stop whatever our relationship is before it's too late. Yes, it's better to end it.

Bumalik ako sa event place. Marami paring tao na naguusap. Hinanap ko sina Mommy pero hindi ko sila mahanap. Hindi ko alam kung umuwi na ba sila or they are still in this place. Since sumabay ako kay Aji kanina, hindi ko alam kung uuwi ba kami o dito na muna kami sa hotel. But I don't really want to see him right now. I want to end our relationship pero bukas nalang. I'm so tired that I want to go home. I texted Mommy, asking their whereabouts.

"Evian!" Napalingon ako sa tumawag sakin.

"Tita!" Lumapit ako kay Tita Ara at nag beso kami. Nginitian ako ni Tito George na nasa likod niya. "You look so beautiful as always!"

"Aww. Thank you! You look beautiful, too!" Malawak ang ngiti ni Tita at grabe ang tuwa habang pinagmamasdan ako. "I think mas bagay if you grow your hair longer."

"Plano ko na nga po."

"Yes, yes. Mas lalong dadami ang admirers mo niyan," mahinang natawa si Tita. "Have you seen Aji? Umalis nalang siya bigla kanina at hindi na bumalik."