DRABBLES AND SERIES [ jinbyul ]

short drabble: ruined

short drabble wherein; byulyi knew that she's down bad when she wanted to curse seokjin while envisioning that it's not him in the end game.

heavily inspired by: down bad, fortnight, i'mgonnagetyouback - taylor swift (TTPD)

a/n: hehe, trying to lie low with my crippling obsession back on kpop, but i've stumbled upon taylor's new set of songs and i kind of loved down bad and i've decided to write something to let out a good plot bunny. was trying to portray the frustrating progression of the song to the story, i tried~

enjoy! i missed you guys~

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it was always the situation in between them.

always being contented with each other's company, but not even writing anything between them. the situation has been on-going for years.

it was on and off- dumb, unable to realize what was really in between them.

and they said that situation like these hurts more than clear break-ups nor fading apart.

because in this, none of them were sure of what was in the line.

sure, it was fun and games.

it was giddy, romantic- and comforting at times.

but when it's time for them to separate and have their nights up until five in the morning all alone, they knew that it's time to contemplate every single time on what they'd do with it.

it was a gut-wrenching feeling of wondering whether they'd stay like this or ask if something is bubbling up in their throats, and yet it's crazy how it's the fear of not wanting things to change also remained.

yet there she faces a scenario wherein she needed to contemplate.

he needed to leave.

and it's not a temporary leave-

it was a length of time wherein one push of denial, she knew that the effect would be forever.

"so like-"

byulyi murmurs, munching on the last chocolate truffle reluctantly, unsure whether she'd want it to disappear right in front of them- knowing that it's an indication of time fading now in between them.

and he needed to leave now.

and when he leaves, there was a dumb frustration spiraling down byulyi's head in wanting him to stay- to make sure that whatever they are having right now won't change when he comes back.

seulgi and hyojung kept telling her that she loves him.

that she does- and she doesn't want to admit it.

that she'd rather lose him than see it herself.

she kept pushing that denial until she knew that it's time to decide.

there sure is a sugarcoat in between what she's making herself believe, stealing slow glances over jin's face, as if she's memorizing every part of his face knowing she'd miss it for a year and more.

her heart keeps aching for a reason she didn't want to accept- thanking that he's wearing a cap to cover his shaved hair.

her favorite cap brand that she gave him as a remembrance.

and he still looks good.

he looks ethereal.

and even if she had those initial thoughts of wanting to kiss him and call him hers, all she feels right now in a cloud of overwhelmed emotions.