Regulus Black Stories

I'd Search the Depths (P6)

Info - obsessive reader, self harm, depressed reader, friends being dead, wanting to be important, bringing someone back to life, emotional break down, mentioning drugging and stealing

"You hate me?" I asked weakly, my heart in slivers.

"You brought me back after nearly all my friends are dead, my brother has moved on, and I have to be a hidden secret with only you," he explained.

"I-I told you, we can tell Sirius and your family. They'll be so happy, it will connect me with them, and people will finally notice and like me," I said excitedly.

"Do you hear yourself?" He asked in exasperation. "You sound like a deranged fan. I'm a human."

"I know you're a human, you were a human who didn't get what he deserved. I brought you back so you could have that. I'll give you self worth and happiness," I said excitedly.

"How do you know you're a solution for anything?" He said viciously. I fell back, pain throbbing in my chest.

"I-" I didn't know what to say.

"Okay that was a bit harsh, but I knew I could've died and I chose that. You took that away from me," he said, looking down at his large scared hands.

"I just don't like this situation at all, and the fact that you killed all those animals and drugged and stole from people," he mumbled.

"You know what it's like to be morally grey," I said desperately.

"Yeah well I don't like myself very much do I?" He snarled.

"I've got to use the bathroom," I said quickly. I began to cry the second the door was shut. I ran to my razor drawer. I'd expected to flush them today, but everything was going wrong. I ripped the skin of my wrist open with the razor. I was slashing without abandon. I wasn't watching how hard I was crying.

"Y/n, you've been in here a long -"

I turned to see a shocked Regulus. He wrestled his shirt off. His torso was so gorgeous. He was running to me and wrapped it around my wrist.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" He asked, voice cracking.

I just cried harder. To my utter shock, he pulled me into his arms. My breath ghosted over his chest as I breathed shallowly.

"Do you want me to kill you?" I asked quietly.