Goodbye Kiss

83. Untitled

Untitled
(somewhere between episode 4 and 7)
late July - August, 2004:

a couple days later————
i laid sideways, hanging over the edge of the bed watching milo sleep.
squinting my eyes, i moved closer to him, making sure his chest moved up and down.
"what're you doing?" luka whispered, flipping over.
"i'm making sure the baby is breathing"
"he hasn't woken up in three hours"
"he's getting used to us" luka smiled
i flipped over to see him,
"just making sure" i smiled
"he'll wake up soon"
"you should get some sleep in the meantime"
"yeah"
"i should" i nodded

two weeks later————
baby boy was officially two weeks old.
luka and i have both already differentiated his cry's and got him sleeping through most of the night. he was a pretty quiet boy in the night.
i sat up in bed and rubbed my eyes.
luka tiptoed down the hallway.
"luka?" i groaned
his footsteps got closer to the bedroom,
"did we wake you?" he whispered
"no" i smiled
"how're you feeling?"
"everything's so sore" i smiled
"glad you pumped, huh?"
"yeah" i sighed
"anything i can get you?"
"come lay in bed" i smiled
i scooted up in the bed and got milo out of luka's arms.
he sat behind me as i laid my head on his chest.
"when cynthia came over the other day and she told me that witch hazel on a pad with ice helped her stitches hurt less"
"i think i'm gonna try that later today"
"are you gonna try to shower?"
"maybe a bath" i shrugged
my compression band around my belly helped with the swelling and stretched skin a lot.
"to be honest luka, i don't even feel like getting out of bed"
he ran his hand through my hair
"you gave birth, you don't have to do anything"
"you can help me transfer from here to the couch later"
"sounds like a plan" he smiled, pressing his lips into my forehead.

another two weeks later————
"you really have to go?"
"weaver's making me"
"it's only been 4 and a half weeks"
"if you need me, call"
i shook my head "we'll be fine"
"i'm sure you will be" he nodded
"who knows, i might even put myself together today" i shrugged
"take it easy"
"i have been" i smiled
"i can call your mom or something to stay with you"
"it's okay"
"i'll just miss you, that's all"
he wrapped me in a hug.
"i'll miss you, too"
"i hope your day goes well"
"yeah, me too" he laughed

i took a shower and got myself put together. i wore a stretchy black skirt and buttoned a few buttons up on a button up white shirt. then, i slid on some shoes. this was the first time i've actually put on real clothes since giving birth.
milo wore a blue little legless onesie since it was still pretty hot outside.
i scrunched my damp hair with a towel before putting baby in his stroller since i was able to squeeze a shower in earlier.
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i sat on a bench in the park taking in the breeze. although, susan came down the pathway with a huge grin on her face,
"gianna" she smiled
"i'm so glad you could make it" i smiled
i was so happy to see other people.
"well, i brought some more of us" she giggled
abby and sam followed behind her, also smiling.
"i just couldn't not come after seeing that picture luka brought" sam said
i lifted milo out of his stroller and cradled him in my arms.
"how are you two doing?" abby asked
"it's the first time i've actually put myself together since giving birth" i laughed
"i've been living in a robe"
"you look great" abby added, raising her eyebrows.
"i can't resist, can i hold him" susan giggled
"of course"
i passed him off to her.
"he's adorable"
"i can tell he's gonna have your hazel eyes" sam said, smiling.
"luka's demeanour" susan smirked
abby stroked his hair.
"is he sleeping through the night?"
"wakes up a little but he's pretty good for the most part"
i ran a hand through my hair "it's tiring being a mom, though"
"oh, i know" susan said
"doesn't get easier when they grow older" sam added
susan raised an eyebrow "luka was talking to me about an extended maternity leave?"
"that's right, you're the chief of emergency medicine"
"yes i am" she smiled
"you're scheduled for six weeks but that wasn't enough for cosmo and i"
"i just need another week" i nodded
"just so i don't have to slug around the ER in a diaper"
"you tore?"
"dr. coburn didn't think it was that bad but it sure feels pretty rough"
"take as much time as you need"
"sam and i should probably get back" abby frowned
"it was so great seeing you two"
"milo's precious" sam waved
"congratulations, gianna" abby smiled
"thank you, two" i smiled
"lucky for you, my shift ended" susan smiled, sitting next to me.
"i told chuck to come bring cosmo"
"i can't wait to see him again" i smiled
"so, how was the bedrest?"