Namjoon - The boy with the dragon eyes - KNJ - RM Kim Namjoon

Chapter 67 I've been wanting to talk to you Part 2

So Yoon was back  in the studio. The past few days, she needed to wear her dark glasses everywhere she went. Ever since she found out that Sieun was going to be Namjoon's fiancee, she didn't sleep well and had dark circles under her eyes. She looked like she had a hangover or something.

"Namjoon" she tought "the big star.. How did she get herself into this, how did she get stuck between these Sieun and him. She paused for a moment "No it wasn't her who got her into this. It was all Sieun's fault" she thought. Sieun should have been honest with her from the start. Now she had to make Sieun choose between the two of them and it would change her life forever. She had given her an ultimatum. Perhaps that was a bit to harsh on Sieun, but So Yoon wanted to know who she would want to spent her future with. 

So Yoon started playing her song Smoke Sprite. How was it possible that  Namjoon was going to be Sieun's  fiancee, and that they had planned this ever since they were little. 

"Out of all people!"  So Yoon thought. The more she was listening to the song, the more frustrated So Yoon became. She was so excited about this collaboration with Namjoon, and he had told her in confidence about the girl in Vegas. In confidence! and here she was, just telling Sieun all about it. It really wasn't her intention, but she could see that Sieun turned jealous the minute she spoke about that Vegas girl. 

So Yoodn stood up and paused the CD. Now she was not sure anymore if Sieun would choose her. Perhaps Sieun was in love with Namjoon, even if she denies it. 

"Maybe I should call Namjoon and tell him how she is in love with Sieun, and  what they have been doing this past year together. After all, Namjoon was like a brother to her and he always supported her. Therefore, So Yoon felt bad that she was keeping a secret from him. "He had the right to know" she thought. 

So Yoon looked at her phone and dailed Namjoon's number. But he didn't pick up and the ring tone sounded like he was overseas. She quickly hang up. ...Perhaps a text message would be more appropriate. She started typing....Hi Namjoon,  I've been wanting to talk to you about something". 

Sieun did not hit sent. Perhaps she had to do it another time, what if he was busy with something very important right now. If he was indeed overseas, he must have been working on something important and this all could wait. Besides it seemed that So Yoon had not made up her mind yet. 

For days now she had been looking at her phone, waiting for a call or text from Sieun. This really felt frustrating to So Yoon. Somehow Sieun always knew how to avoid things. How to redirect conversations and sweep things under a rug.

So Yoon got nervous "What if the  love of my life will choose Namjoon. Cause honestly, who could resist Namjoon"?

If  Sieun by some miracle  agreed to be her, it could mean the end of her career. It would be a scandal if people found out that she was into women. But Sieun was not just a woman, she was special and So Yoon would give up her career for her. She looked around in studio., this could all mean the end of things, but she would gain the love of her life.

The more So Yoon thought about it, the more she was relieved that Namjoon did not pick up the phone.  Somehow now she felt that she didn't really thought things through. Perhaps Sieun just  needed more time to think and choose her after all.

She looked at her message to  Namjoon  ...I've been wanting to talk to you "it said, and  she quickly deleted it.