Celina's Lover

27- Telling her

'SARAFINA!' Celina shouted when Sara didn't respond after the third time she asked. She didn't even move. She was frozen to her wheelchair, scared something was going to happen if she did. She was staring at the rain outside, as it was getting darker. It was a full moon today and it looked magical against the cloudless sky. It was a blood moon night and Sara couldn't take her eyes off it. Her ears were filled with the sound of the falling water drops. The window was ajar and her lungs filled with the late summer shower. This was the closest thing she'd come to being outside in the time she had been here. It was a weird feeling. She loved it, being with Celina and Lucy, she needed it. But she missed the outside.

Very close to her house was a big park. She loved coming there. The trees were close to one another and created a shadow over the path. It made her feel protected. The sun could hardly reach her there and the leaves would catch all the rain. She loved the smell of wet grass and moss. The falling leaves that would tell you that the start of Autumn was coming would crackle under her feet. In the middle of that park was a small lake with a water fountain. She would sit down in the grass and listen to the water falling on the water surface. The birds that would sing their songs and a woodpecker that was trying to find some food. If you were at the water fountain, you were safe. Safe in your own place. No sounds of cars or clothes city noises. If you went early or late enough, there wouldn't be a single person. She missed it. She needed it.

'where are you in your head?' Celina asked again, her voice still loud. 'Celin, go easy on her please. Not everyone had a great day today.' Lucy merged herself into the conversation. She was sitting at the kitchen table doing paperwork. She had been working on it for over an hour now and she was tired of it. Celina's shouting stopped as she turned to Sara. Sara wasn't paying attention to her. Her back was still turned, but she heard every word that was getting said. She heard everything Celina had said, she just couldn't answer. She felt Celina's footsteps grew closer to her. Then she got pulled away. Celina had pulled on the wheelchair, so Sara had to look at her. Celina kneeled to be on the same eye level. 'What happened today?' She asked. She looked worried, just as her voice. Sara wanted to answer, but her throat was dry. 'I just had an attack this morning, but I'm fine.'

They heard a sound coming from the living room, followed by Lucy's head poking around the door. Sara looked up at her, asking for help with her eyes. Lucy walked in and sat down on the bed. 'I know it's hard to talk about, but Celina won't run.' Lucy began. Sara looked down at her hands as Celina looked from Lucy to Sara like there was an invisible ping pong ball going through the air. 'You had the whole day to think about this and postponing isn't better.' Lucy's voice was direct, but sweet. She really wanted the best for Sara and she knew it. Sara was still not looking up from her lap. To get her attention, Celina put both her hands down on her knees, but Sara still wasn't looking. 'Sara, I don't know what happened this morning, but if there's something to tell me, you should.

Sara thought about it. The whole day, she had been rehearsing what to say, but every version sounded stupid. And here, at this moment, she decided to just go with it. She told her exactly the same story as she did with Lucy, just in the right order this time. Celina listened and tried not to cry or interrupt her story. Sara rarely looked at Celina or Lucy. Instead, she gazed at the walls, floor and her lap.

Next part: December 2nd 2024