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C H A P T E R - 57

Mayra

I feel so claustrophobic and nauseous at the same time. I can't take all this at once. It feels like as if someone physically grabbed my heart and was repeatedly squeezing it.

My hands were visibly shaking and I was scared what if someone saw me so I shoved my hand in pocket and focused on the present. But I can't.

Please god! make this pain go away. Only if I accept this would've happened sooner or later I won't feel such heartbreak.

"Kya hua Mayra" (What happened Mayra) I blinked at the mention of my name as I noticed Tanvisha approach me.

I would've have answered her had it not been someone calling Aarav. He is here. No no please!

I can't face him and let him have this satisfaction of ruining me. Though he did ruined me.

"AARAV!!" my cousin beside me squealed with joy and jogs towards him but I don't turn around. What if he'll look at me and saw me straight through my eyes.. of the chaos that's storming inside me.

Will he be happy? will he enjoy it?

"Mayra stay here till the engagement at atleast" I could vaguely hear what Suvy maa told me and I seemed to nod. I accidentally glanced to where both of them stood, Tanvisha whisper talked to him something, I could not see him but I'm sure he's happy. And why won't he be.. a playboy will always be a playboy.

I inhaled sharply looking away. The back of my throat started to burn and I forced the tears back "I'm going... to sleep" I said to no one in particular as I walked away. Intentionally ignoring the two new love birds on my way.

I ran and ran holding the tears for as long as I could. You can do this Mayra, please don't break. please!

I never realized someone call me until I was shoved back by a hand on my elbow "Stop Mayra" Iti whisper yelled at me, her forehead creased with tension lining her eyes and I could not hold back my tears any longer.

"W-what.." she blinked then the realization hit her.. and I truly never felt such vulnerable my entire life that I feel now. I couldn't even have control over my own emotions.

"Why didn't you tell me before.." she made to grab my cheeks but I wriggled my wrist out of her hold "Please ..Iti" and I ran away to the same guest room that once used to be my room and locked myself in.

I inhaled deeply to suppress the urge to cry. I poured myself some water and drank all of it in one go. I want to clear my head and not keep thinking about this again and again.

Don't worry Mayra. Every thing will be alright.. just breath. Forget as if this was meant to be...

A knock sounded on my door and I whirled panicking, my cheeks were stained with tears and I was a pure mess now. "Mayra open the door it's me" I heard dadi call me from outside and I quickly rubbed my cheeks and made my hairs before opening the door wide.

She came and she saw me. As if she really saw me because she embraced me, her hug was warmer than any coldness inside my heart. I wasn't numb anymore as I slowly encircled my arms around her.

"I'm sorry" she said, nuzzling into me and patting my hairs. After a moment she released me and took me towards my bed and made me settle on it beside her.

"You can talk about it" I picked at my nails not looking at her and a single tear dropped on my lap. "Mayra" she slowly took my hand in hers and I finally did look at her "You were right dadi" my throat hurt again and this time I did not held back.

"I loved him.. " she pulls me in a tight hug whispering sweet words to me as I burst into silent tears in her lap.

"What do I do with this pain dadi" I spoke through my sob as she combs my hair with her wrinkled fingers "Pain fades away with time dear give it some time" all the memories started clogging my head. When he first kissed me, how he called me bunny, when he teased me. It's over. It's all over.

I nuzzled close to her tightly embracing her waist as the sleep blanketed my brain and freed me from the torture of my memories with him.

The next morning I slept late and no one came to wake me up. When I dragged myself out of the bed my head throbbed with immense pain and my eyes looked all swollen.

I quickly bathed and dressed in a green Anarkali. Even though I had no amount of energy neither mood to get accessories so I let my hairs open and opted for earrings.

When I left my room I noticed many servants and maid passing by the corridors. I don't know when the engagement is but it definitely is sooner if the preparations have already started.

I questioned one of the maid about where were all of them and she told me the entire family was at the backyard garden, the place where the Parihaar family usually spent their family time together.

I didn't felt the energy to face all of them yet so I went to the kitchen. I would gladly help anyone with anything just to distract myself.

"Looking for someone?" a deadly shiver ran through the whole of me. No no no no no no.

Why is here and why is he talking to me. He has no right to do that. My fingers visibly shook but the anger was taking over any feeling.

I whirled around so fast and was glad did not knocked something down in the process "Certainly not looking for you" Aarav stared me hard and I stared him back. Not flinching an ounce even when he stepped an inch closer.

"Tum congratulate nhi krogi mujhe?" (Won't you congratulate me?) He was directly at my face now and I fought blinking and staring away.

"Mai nhi krungi to tumhe farq padega?" (Will it make any difference if I do?) I shoved my hands in between the crease of my dress to hide the shakiness.

"Meri fiancee ko padega" I wanted to scream at him, push him, show him how much this affects me.

"Usse mana lena. Wo to tumhe ache se aata hai" (Then persuade her. You're excellent at that) he pursed his lips at that leaning on the kitchen counter.

"Aur tum?" (And you?) he asked, his tone appearing deceptive now. "You already got what you wanted. Now don't play again" my voice held no emotions. I already feel so tired and it pains me enough, I don't want to intense it.

"Did you get your solution... by running away from me" I don't want to register his tone because I don't want to think about it and cry later.

He straightened and left.

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