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C H A P T E R - 50

Mayra

I blew my hairs dry after hastily changing into a pair of night suit. Not a single moment went by without me drifting away to the moments happened not hours ago.

We were drenched under the rain by the time we reached the car and drove back home in silence, not awkward but intimate.

After what happened in the storeroom and that memory suddenly rushing back to me made me lose control. I avoided him at most because I was mad at him, for lying to me.. making me believe he kissed me. When he did touched me, when his lips traced, sucked, bit my skin.. I knew instantly he never touched me before. Because that touch I cannot forget even in death.

And then what he said.. what he called me.. mine. I lost completely. He was ruining me in most beautiful ways I cannot express. Maybe I want to be ruined and only by him. But are you sure Mayra? 

A knock occurred on my door, it cannot be Moksha as both her and her twin went to meet their maternal grandmother. 

I opened the door to find Iti jumping up for me "Mayra. What are you doing in your room! come join us" she practically drags me away not realizing I've no plans of stumbling upon a certain brute who's hell bent on stealing pecks from me at any moment he finds.

We descent down the stairs to find the entire family except for Moksha, Adi and Sharan in the dining hall. To be honest I'm truly missing all of them.

"Oh Mayra. Are you cold?" Suvy maa calls me and we both round the many couches. My feet reacted even before my mind, I twirled around to settle on opposite of her as I saw Aarav slouching down the sofa his head on her lap.

He seem to notice my nervous energy as the jerk was smiling so boldly, I didn't let that affect me "I'm fine maa" I smile at her completely ignoring her notorious son.

"I'm glad you and Aarav are finally getting on good terms" if I'd be drinking water I definitely would've choked. Good terms?

He appears so innocent while playing with her hairs as if she's speaking facts. "Mm y-yeah. Sort of" to my words his brows raised slightly only for me to notice and then he goes back playing with her mother's hair.

"I told you maa I can be friendly if I want to" he muttered flicking her hairs back and she swipes her fingers into his scalp "Yes yes. I hate how fast my boys grew up" her voice turns softer and he grins boyishly at her "Don't worry maa. I'll give you so many of my mini versions to have your motherly urges satisfied with" he winks at her pulling out a gentle laugh from her.

"Till then Iti bhabhi can help you with that" he gestures to her and I suppressed a smile at Iti's redness "Aarav" Iti pointedly calls him hiding her embarrassment "I mean Manav bhai would hardly need convincing" she coughs at his words and my laughter could not stay down longer.

She hisses at me silently just when my phone buzzed. The notification snatches away all the sound and laughter. I go quite for a moment shoving down the phone back in the pocket, I can feel Aarav's attention on me but I don't look back at him because it'll only hurt me.

I got up without anyone's notice and rounded the couches to the stairs when Iti shouted for me "What happened Mayra" tsk. I half turned to her "Nothing I have some work left" I could find no better excuse right now.

"There's no college for now and you're done with your packing too" she puts logic but I could hardly hear her over the noise in my head. I noticed Aarav's posture stiffening.

"What packing" he straightened questioning me directly and all of them were now facing me. I sucked in a breath answering "I'm going home tomorrow".

I didn't wait for them to speak as I ascent the stairs breathing heavily. I talked to mumma days ago telling her about my college holidays and she wanted me to come back.. and at that time I too wanted nothing more than that.

I wanted to stay away from him but now I can't seem to do that. I'm upset and I can't even tell this to anyone.

I shut the door behind me and climbed up my bed curling under the blanket. I don't know why I can't lift the heaviness out of my chest. Tears spilled and I let them. In this silence and dark I wanted to cry out my sorrows.

Tears stained my pillows and soon the sleep embraced me.

You're scared. Yes

You're miserable. Maybe

Don't you want to change? I've always been like this.

No. You were a coward before but that has changed. Because of him, you're embracing yourself more and more. Huh?

Admit it that you want him. To yourself and then to him.

I wake up to the feeling of my blankets rustling, sweat damping the t shirt from back and as I stretched my legs something touched me.

I jerked awake completely to a hand placed against my mouth and a solid frame sticking to my side. My eyes widened as I made out who it was in this dim light. I can recognize him even blindfolded.

"Don't scream. Will you" he breathed peeling his hands off my face "What are you doing" I whispered scooting away from him but he blocked any way of escaping by his arm draped around my middle.

"I was trying to wake you up.." he trails off. I didn't feel him waking me up. He continued noticing my furrowed brows "I saw you sleeping peacefully so I didn't" my lips parted and eyes darted to the wall clock opposite me. It was past three in the morning.

"For how long?" I muttered breathing in his cologne "Three hours thirty five minute and  twenty seven seconds" he eyes his watch leaving me shocked and speechless.

"W-why?" I said it absentmindedly "Because I wanted to" he answers.

His gaze rakes over my entire face without a word and settles on my eyes at last "What happened?" I asked wanting to kill this silence.

"You should've told me you were leaving" I stared both his orbs repressing the urge to lick the dryness off my lips "Why" it just came out but his expression did not changed.

"Because I'd like to know I can't be with my girlfriend anymore, atleast for some days" I gasped louder than ever and he refrained from smirking.

"I'm not your girlfriend, you should ask someone before you go out declaring them your anything" I say hiding the redness and nervousness under the thin layer of my skin.

"I'm asking you now. Lemme be your boyfriend Mayra" he stares me so hard with hope lining them I remotely turn away from his sensual gaze. Gosh how can he be so direct.

 Before I could speak he nuzzles in my hair trailing the tip of my ears.

"Will you miss me when I leave for Delhi?" I divert the question towards him as his gaze dips to my lips and I refrain from biting them "Do you want me to?" he countered back.

"Can you for once not answer me with another question" I was growing impatient as he chuckles "You started it baby" I stiffened, a strange and erotic spark ran down my spine at that nickname.

"I don't even want you out of my eyes. I waited for six months even though I kept telling myself I was over you but I was only fooling myself. So yes it'll be harder now" he nuzzles again this time in my cheek. I've noticed he likes doing that alot.

It gives me strange sort of pleasure knowing I make him feel all that "You waited?" I happen to say. "Every second" he hums.

And then his breath sounds even as he slowly drifted off to sleep on my shoulder. 

"Yes. You ruined me enough to have me crave only for you Aarav" I whispered stroking his head as I too drifted off to sleep snuggling into him.