𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐀𝐌𝐘𝐀

C H A P T E R - 59

Mayra

I was avoiding everybody without anyone catching that I'm actually avoiding them. Yesterday when I accidentally encountered Adi on my way.. he asked too many questions and at some point I felt like talking to him or cry my heart out.

But I cannot do that, it would be so selfish considering Aarav and Tanvisha are getting engaged tomorrow. It's so hard for me to even process that so I opt for my favorite option .. be invisible.

"Right Mayra" someone nudged me by their elbow and I blink in response. "Annika bhabhi wants me to pick a dress between these" Iti clarifies for me. She has been a constant light to my darkness these days, whenever I get lost somewhere deep in my head and am too naive to admit I didn't heard them. She would help me just as she did now.

And the thing that happened the day before yesterday, when she realized or what she realized we never spoke of that, rather I avoided talking about it and insisted her to do the same.

"What do you think Mayra?" Annika bhabhi clutches one of my arm looking confused and I pretend to look through dozens of designer clothes the lady showed us.

I wasn't actually up for shopping and was happy and chilling not really chilling in my bed when Iti barged in and announced I was coming along with her. So here I am.

"The blue one.. it would look good on you" I added trying to put enthusiasm to my tone. Bhabhi takes the dress and walks towards the changing room.

"Mayra" I take the cup of tea the lady provided us and looked at Iti, her eyes were concerning and I knew what was coming for me "Don't stop me now" she cuts me off even before I began talking.

"Do you think you're doing a great work by avoiding me instead of confronting" she exhales sharply making me face her now. "There is nothing to confront" I stated without breaking the eye contact. That would seem true if I won't look away.

"Fool everybody little bell but not me" she pushes back a stray strand from my face "I can't see you like this" her eyes were almost red. 

"Heartbreaks happen sister. Letting people go is a wiser choice" I say nonchalantly taking a sip of my tea but it tastes bitter so I put it away then grabbed my phone to get up. I have to leave. I should leave.

"Not without giving them atleast one chance" she retorts instantly and I whirl around just in time to say "The engagement is tomorrow!" my voice sounded broken.. no please no. Don't let it start again. I've hardly come at this point where I'm trying not to scream and cry every second.

"Exactly. The engagement is tomorrow" she repeats standing up, her eyes holding so many emotions at once that I feel pins pricking every corner of my heart. 

I wanted him to want me. Maybe it was selfish to think so... when it was me who told him to leave. But he should've stayed like he always did. He should've still held my hand and told me I was what he needed.

I wipe the tears from the back of my hand leaving the store and for the car waiting outside. I stopped midway finding Sharan leaning on the bonnet of the car. He spots me almost immediately.

"Going already?" he doesn't questions me about the tears that stained my cheeks or why I cried. and that's because he's not that sort of man and this time I would like his company more than ever. Because he won't judge or lecture me.

I simply nod in response and he gestures to sit on the passenger seat as he rounds the car to take the driver's seat.

"So where to?" he faces me with a straight face "Home of course" I muttered glancing out the window. "I'm sure home would be the last place you want to be right now" he eyes me knowingly then turns on the engine. 

"I would've preferred bike though" he comments slapping the steering wheel as he drives out of the parking lot.

"Ice cream?" he suggested without lifting his attention from the road "I don't-" I wasn't even completed when he interrupts "Sometimes I wonder how contrasting you and Aarav are" his comments makes me turn towards him.

"W-why would you compare us" I play dumb because I don't want another one of them knowing how vulnerable I feel. "It's okay" he adds right after.

"I understand you and your anger" he vaguely says glancing in my direction "I won't lie to you and say the pain would fade away with time. That's bullshit. Whatever time you have is right now.. make the most of it" he clicks his tongue before accelerating the car and my thoughts shuffle together.

"I just want to get out of this situation. It's strangling me" I mumbled absentmindedly loud enough for him to hear. "It's you who can get you out of this situation love" he shrugs simply popping a mint gum in his mouth which he fished out from his pocket.

I have to leave tonight. I cannot stay here and let Aarav have the satisfaction of my pain. He doesn't deserves it. 

But I can't tell anyone.. god help me.