GRAMMYs | (MYG)

Chapter 34

The sun had set, and there was not a single cloud on the night sky. The starry sky complemented the full moon well, the stars seeming to dance around the moon as they lit up the sky. The moonlight together with the stars and the dim street lights across from Kat's house helped light up Kat and Yoongi's faces as they looked up at the sky, laying down on her terrace.

"My grandma whooped my ass that day, but I don't regret it!" They both laughed at the childhood stories Kat was telling Yoongi.

"I see you were quite a handful!"

"You have no idea! I was quite a troublemaker when I was a kid, but at school I always kept my cool and did my best!!"

"Me personally, I was actually a very well-behaved kid, but everything changed once I reached my teens. I knew I wanted to make music for a living, and I thought going to school was a waste of time."

"I know, your mom once told me how you were always an angel growing up. She said that if we ever had a kid and they took after you, parenting would be a breeze."

Silence fell over them, nothing but their breaths could be heard as Yoongi got lost in thought. His eyebrows were furrowed, and he swallowed thickly as he thought about having a kid with Kat.

"Do you ever think about it?"

"What?" she turned to look at his face, her lips slightly parted as she waited for him to continue.

"Our baby? How we almost had a baby together?"

"Sometimes..." she admitted quietly, as her eyes searched his. "Do you?"

"Yeah... I find myself thinking about it a lot. It's crazy how different our lives could've turned out. We could be parents by now."

Silence engulfed them once more as they both imagined how different their lives could've turned out. After a pause, Kat spoke up, looking at Yoongi with glimmer of curiosity in her eyes.

"What do you think the baby was? A boy or a girl?"

"I think it would be a girl. A mini-you running around the house chasing the cats. I can see it already!" He chuckled softly, and they both smiled as they pictured it.

"I always imagined it as a boy. He'd have your nose and your eyes but would have my smile. I always pictured the hair would be wavy just like mine, and you two would get matching hairstyles."

"I still feel guilty about that day..." his smile fell for a minute, before he admitted.

"What day?"

"When you lost our baby... It was a lot to take in, and I should've been there for you. I should've held your hand throughout it. Instead, you had to find out you were pregnant, and the baby wouldn't make it... All without me..." Yoongi's voice wavered a little bit towards the end of his sentence. It was still a sensitive topic for him especially.

They didn't heal properly from the incident, probably because they never talked it out with each other. They held onto that pain forever, both feeling guilt and agony eating them away. The conversation they were having now was a very difficult, but much needed one, that should've taken place years ago.

"I also feel guilty for losing them."

"Come on Kat, there was nothing we could've done. It wasn't your fault!"

"I don't know, maybe if I noticed sooner; Maybe if I took better care of myself back then... Maybe they could've made it." She sniffed quietly.

Yoongi turned to take a better look at her his features immediately softening with worry as he saw her cry. He reached his hand out and wiped a couple of tears from her cheeks.