Painful pasts and terrible truths

Chapter 1

I woke up instantly, that nightmare was horrible, why did my brain do that to me, I was shaking, I felt the need to throw up, I rushed to the bathroom, I pulled Scott out of the doorway and I threw up in the toilet, Scott of course got worried and he pulled my hair out of my face so I didn't get it soaked in vomit

"Are you ok" Scott asked

I nodded

"I know what to do, hang on" Scott ordered me to stay put

"Hey baby are you alright" I heard Virgil's sweet and calm voice

"Get away from me!" I screamed

"Whoa it's ok, babe it's me, I'm not going to hurt you" Virgil tried to reassure me, it wasn't working

"No, stay away from me" I panicked and I tried to shield myself from him

"Scott can you give us some privacy" Virgil requested, he went quiet, Scott left the room in a hurry, he cared about Virgil's privacy a lot more now

"Please don't hurt me" I whimpered

"I won't, was it another nightmare, they seem to be less frequent now, if you want to sleep in my room you can" Virgil wondered, oh thank the Lord, he's taken his medication, he's so sweet and compassionate when he takes his antidepressants, he helped me to stand up, I was still very shaky, he led me to his room and I decided to sleep on the floor

"I don't want to talk about it" I mumbled

"Why are you sleeping on the floor, you'll get cold" Virgil whined

"I don't care, I don't trust you" I snapped

"Why don't you trust me, I thought you were over this" Virgil seemed worried now

"In my nightmare you did really horrible things to me, you were getting angry and I didn't know what to do so I punched you, and then you assaulted me" I explained, I may have broken down into tears

"Whoa, I would never do that to you, baby it's ok, why don't you sleep in a proper bed, you're going to get a bad back" Virgil warned me

I ignored his warning and I fell asleep, when I woke up I had a bad back and a stiff neck, ugh, I tried to climb over him so I didn't wake him up, I snuggled up to him, it was a lot warmer and less painful than the floor

"I see you're in pain, sleeping on the floor does that to you" Virgil yawned

"Shut up" I grumbled

"What, its the truth, I warned you that you would end up hurt and you did" Virgil whispered and then kissed me

I flinched a little which made him worry

"Sorry" I apologised

"It's ok, do you want a cup of tea" Virgil asked

I nodded, in response Virgil got up, put his clothes and his boots on and he went downstairs, I got to snuggle down into the covers, I didn't feel so good today, after I threw up my stomach started to hurt and it got worse overnight, I also seem to have a cold

"Aren't you going to get up" Alan wondered

"No, what time is it" I questioned him

"Five in the morning" Alan replied

"Well no, I'm not going to get up" I laughed

Alan walked away from the door, I burrowed down again because it was freezing

"Hey, I made your tea, are you going to get out of your weird cocoon thingy and drink it" I heard Virgil enter the room

"No, I'm a caterpillar and I shall stay in here until I become a beautiful butterfly" I argued

"But you're already a beautiful butterfly" Virgil protested, he tried to find me under the covers and when he did he didn't look very happy, he pulled me closer to him and I was freaking out

"Please don't" I panicked

"Shh I'm not going to hurt you" Virgil muttered

Oh god